Saving Riley

Chapter 19- Fighting with Alex

I was woken by the incessant beeping, this was almost as bad as the Justin Bieber 'song' (term used loosely- I prefer noise!) I tried to feel out the sound of the noise, preferably so I could launch it against the wall, but for some reason my wrist hurt so I let my hand drop to the side of the bed. I don't remember going to bed. I looked around where I was for the first time, I came face to face with eyes like mine, hair not messed into different directions like it normally is. These eyes used to look at me with love, when I was naughty and Adam got mad Alex would always cover for me or take my side, even when I deserved Adam's wrath, now those eyes showed anger and disappointment. Alex spoke first.

'You didn't think about me at all did you?' he had his head in his hands, tears flowing freely through his fingers.

'What do you mean? Its all a bit fuzzy. Why are you crying?' What happened why was Alex so upset, I gave my head a minute to clear before yesterdays events came rushing back to me. I looked at Alex, who was still pretty pissed.

'I didn't try to kill myself if that's what you mean. I had such an awful day Alex. I....' He cut me off.

'No you don't understand Riley; His voice rose with anger. 'How could you be so selfish Riley, we've already lost our parents, not that they gave a shit about us, then we lost Adam. Am I that bad to live with that you have to do this?' I was a little stunned Alex never gets angry and he's never yelled at me before 'WELL ANSWER ME RILEY'

I was angry now, he knows nothing about me and he wont listen to what I have to say 'You know nothing about my life Alex, you left 4 years ago, remember? It was me who dealt with Adam's death, it was me who viewed his dead body, it was me who made funeral plans. Where were you Alex? Living it up here, whilst I who was just 17 Alex, only 17, did it all by myself. I needed you Alex, where the fuck were you?

'I...' he started.

'No Alex now you will listen to me, I cut Alex, I cut because I hurt Alex. I didn't mean for this to happen.'

'I can't deal with this right now Riley?' he stormed out of the door, slamming it as he went.

I laid back against the uncomfortable pillows. I was horrible to Alex. I let the tears flow.

'He didn't mean what he said Riley' a new voice spoke, scaring the shit out of me, I hadn't noticed there was anyone else in the room. I looked to the opposite side of the bed to see a blonde guy with messed up surfer hair.

'I don't mean to be rude but who the fuck are you?' I was a little taken back when he started laughing uncontrollably. 'I'm Jake, Alex's boyfriend'

'Say what? Boyfriend? Alex is gay? Ah, I should have guessed I suppose, I'm glad he finally has someone, he deserves someone to love him as much as I do. Do you think he'll be back soon, I want to apologise. I was horrible.'

Jake came over to give me a hug, 'He'll be back soon, he's just angry at himself. He's angry that he wasn't there for you. Since that Hunter guy, he's seen you become more and more depressed. He's so worried about you. You're either drinking or working and you never eat. You need to tell him what's going on Riley, we're all you have now. I feel like I know all there is to know about you already, Alex tells me everything. I'm here for you too. Oh, and I kinda moved in yesterday. Is that ok?'

I giggled at his nervous rambling. 'I'm so glad Alex has you, I'm bored can we watch a movie'.

An hour later we were snuggled up on my bed with food, since I was hungry after not eating, laughing at Despicable Me. We didn't hear the door open.

'Is it ok if I join you guys?' Alex spoke from the doorway.

I wriggled over to give Alex room and laid my head on his shoulder.