Chapter 8
Ang tagal na din naming hindi nagkikita or nagkakasama ni Stephen. I miss being with him. ://
Kahit naman kasi palage kami magkatext iba pa din yung feeling na nagkikita or nakakasama kami. hmmmmm,
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February 14 (Thursday)
We have the same hour of vacant and dismiss of class.
May chance sana na magkita kami ngayon, pampabuo man lang ng Valetines Day ko. Kaso, absent ako that day, burial day kasi ng Tita ko (R.I.P tita). haaaay! Ito na pinaka'sad na valentines day ko. >____<
"Happy Valentis Day, panget! I love you, as my friend! :* :)" - Stupid greeting from me. NOOB!
Why did I say this, even he really mean to me more than a friend?
Nag' I love you too naman siya, also with as my friend.
Ang ewan namin, nuh?
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Saturady Night (February 16)
I don't why and how, but I'm really mean this night. Sobrang moody, as in napapalibutan ako ng black aura.
We've texting that night, even though I'm in the bad mood when it comes to him, nawawala yun.
Iba yung mood ko sa kanya at iba yung mood ko sa iba ng tao.
That time may kinukwento ata ako sa kanya. All I remember is he replied to my text "oh?" and I really hate that word, I feel or think na, "Bakit? Ano ba yan? Do I care?" That means to me the word "oh?" And because I'm in the bad mood, I can't help it nag'iba na din yung mood ko sa kanya. And later on I said to him,
"Nakakainis ka."
I didn't really mean it na nakakainis siya. Ganun kasi ako kapag bad mood, kung sino kausap ko siya napapagbuntonan. Sorry!
Nagalit siya sa akin. As in. Galit na galit. I don't know what to do. Ang hirap talaga kapag siya nagalit. Hindi ko kaya.
I know it's my wrong. Hindi ko naman yun sinasadya. at hindi ko siya masisisi kung bakit siya nagalit sa akin. That time all I can do is to say sorry and to have his forgiveness, but natapos yung gabi ng hindi kami nagkakabati.
And a lonely night, passed.
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Kinaumagahan, ayon pagkagising, as in pagkamulat ng mata ko si phone agad tinignan ko. Paulit ulit sa utak ko yung naging pagkagalit sa akin ni Stephen.
Tinext ko agad siya nun, saying sorry and still hoping for his forgiveness.
Naghintay ako, pero walang dumadating na text galing sa kanya. >____<
Until nung before mag'lunch, may text na dumating from him, hoping that he forgive me na, pero GM lang yung and at the end saying,
"Nakakainis rin pala eh, ano?"
Tamang tama sa akin. I really feel guilty. I'm really sorry na talaga for that. Hindi ko naman talaga yun sinasadya. Gusto ko siya itext pero cut na yung unli ko and maybe it wouldn't help, baka lalo pa kasi siya magalit.
Hindi na lang ako nagtext, whole day. Pati rin naman siya hindi nagtetext eh, asa pa ako eh galit nga.
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Then Monday ..
Pumasok ako sa school na lonely. Feeling ko kulang ako. Parang iba, ganun.
