Okay first of all, HOLY MOTHER OF HEAVEN! 500 READS THANK YOU SO MUCH I CANT EVEN JUST HOLY SHITAKI!!!! Like I was just looking and I was like how many reads do I have and it said 501!!! HOLY CRAP LIKE OH MY GOD THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!! Okay I have to stop now but still thanks guys. Oh yeah I put in a song that kinda inspired a bit of this chapter so yeah. Annny who... ON WITH THE CHAPTERRRR>>>>>>>>>
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Makena's POV
I cant get the image out of my head. The feeling of him on top of me. The scent of him is stuck in my nose. I just feel so dirty. So gross. I feel disgusting. Like I somehow cant get him off of me. I just want to get him out of my head. Get all my memories taken away. I wonder if they have a surgery for that? Why couldn't I just have listened to Robbie? Why did I have to put myself in that situation? Why am I so stupid?
"Kenna?" Robbie's voice cut through my thoughts. I snap out of it and turn to him. "Are you okay?" He asked. That three question word that I hate. Define the meaning of okay? Is it feeling happy? Is it feeling important? Is it just feeling good enough to live? I don't know. I just stared into his beautiful forest green eyes. They were filled with wonder and confusion. I did not know what to say. I could understand why he was so concerned for me. I had not slept very well and I had not eaten much. I put my head down and slowly shook it. Robbie sighed and wrapped his arms around me puling me close.
"I don't know what you're thinking. I don't know how you feel. I don't know how your beautiful mind works," He said quietly, resting his head on top of mine. "But what I do know, is that I will be here for you no matter what. I mean it this time. I'm gonna make everything okay."
Tears slowly fell from my eyes. I don't know why he is so protective of me. I don't know why he is so loyal and caring to me. I did not do anything to deserve his kindness. I pulled away and sat back against the couch. I ran my hands through my hair with a sigh.
"I feel dirty," I said shamefully quiet. There was a moment of silence and I didn't want to look at Robbie. But I did. And I regretted it. His eyes were filled with pity, sadness and regret. He had tears falling down his face, but his expression was emotionless. I shouldn't have told him.
"No," He said shaking his head. "You are not."
"But I feel it."
"But you're not!" He said serious. "You are beautiful, and you are not dirty."
There was silence.
"It doesn't matter. Don't worry about my stupid problems." I said standing up and walking out of the living room. He followed me as I walked into the kitchen.
"Yes it does matter! And I am going to worry about your problems because I care about you!" He argued.
"I'll grow out of it and get over it,"I mumbled. "Just forget I even spoke."
Robbie's POV
She was making me more and more worried about her. She tells me not to worry, but I can see it in her eyes, I can read it on her face. She doesn't feel good about herself. She's not her usual happy go lucky self. She's mopey and quiet. That light behind her eyes is gone.
She is depressed, and it scares me. Why cant she see that she is absolutely beyond perfect to me?
Because we're just friends. And that's all we're ever going to be.
I have to make her happy again. I have to make sure she knows how important she is.
Even if it means telling her my biggest secret.
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The Best Of Friends// Robbie Kay
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