Lost In The Music

Chapter 5

*Lucy's View*

I am so embarrassed by what had just happened, I've known him for a couple of days and he thinks he can just kiss me? I wouldn't care if he was harry styles or any random person, I wouldn't have let them kiss me. Also I haven't even had my first kiss and I want it to actually mean something to me, I know it sounds old fashioned but oh well.

I needed to say something or I would probably cry.

"I'm going to wait in the car, you can finish clearing all this up" I said, it came out in a harsher tone that what i had meant it to but I just wanted to go home right now. I saw the disappointment in his eyes but i just turned my back and walked away. 

The journey home was silent and you could feel the tension, I could feel his gaze fall on me constantly, I just tried to ignore it. When we finally reached mine I nodded as a sign of a thank you and opened the door, just as I was about to get out Harry grabbed my wrist

"I'm really sorry Lucy, I don't know what came over me, I didn't mean to upset you" I could see that he meant it, I could see the guilt in his eyes. However I wasn't going to give him the forgiveness he wanted, he shouldn't have tried to kiss me in the first place. 

"Goodnight Harry" I replied firmly, forcing him to release his grip with my free hand. I slammed the door shut and ran up my path to my house, not turning back once. When I got into my house I slid down the door and cried. I wish I could control how I felt, as really I wasn't as upset as it was coming across. I must admit i slightly overreacted but i didn't know what to do.

I lazily took off my clothes trhowing them onto the floor, instead of neatly folding them as i usually would have done. I pulled an old t-shirt over my head and slipped of some checkered pyjama bottoms. i scraped my hair up into a messy bun.

*Harry's view*

Once again I ruined my chances with a nice girl by going back to how I used to be. I used to meet girls and just take them home after one kiss. But Lucy was different, she wasn't easy. She is so difficult to understand though. She seemed like she was okay with spending time with me when we were at the beach. I mean she was the one that agreed to the fucking date.

I didn't bother going home I just drove around for a while, I needed to clear my head. 

This girl seemed so perfect but now both times I've seen her and had the chance to talk to her I've acted like a dick, something about her makes me nervous. She is the kind of person that I won't stop thinking about, I will become attached. That's happened once before..

***flash back***

"Harry let go you're hurting me" tears were streaming down her face

"Promise me you'll come back, fucking promise me." I was yelling so loud my face was surely bright red. My voice was unrecognisable to even myself. She didn't answer me straight away and this made me madder.

"Answer me" I whispered, tears threatening my eyes, I couldn't cope if she left me and I had convinced myself she was going to.

"Harry I'm going to the shops, this is getting ridiculous, you're frightening me"  her tears had soaked her top "I don't think I'll be coming home"

***end of flashback***

I became possessive, hurt her and made her cry. All because I thought she was going to leave. However my possessiveness became the reason she left.

Tonight I was scared that if I didn't kiss Lucy and claim her as mine she would be free to talk to other guys without feeling the guilt of having kissed me. Now I doubt she'd ever choose me over another guy.

By midnight I had left her over 20 voice mails and around 50 texts, all of which there was no reply. I gave up.

*Lucy's view*

I could tell he was sorry, but there would be no point forgiving him considering what happened last time I gave him a chance, anyway I could never love him so if we got close he would think I was leading him on.

I checked the time on my clock and it was 1:00, all I wanted to do was sleep but I wasn't even tired and the amount of stuff on my mind was also making it pretty difficult to do so.

I decided to go for a walk to burn off my energy, I would go for a drive but I never drive after dark as the thought of how dangerous it could be scares me. I pulled my coat on over my pyjamas and put on some UGG boots I had lying around, I wasn't entirely sure if they were mine but I'm sure Ali wouldn't mind if they were hers.

As I walked outside the cool night breeze hit me and already I felt at ease. There was no one around and no noises where to be heard.

I must have walked for around an hour when a car horn brought me back to reality as I crossed a road without looking to see if anything was coming. I was so close to being hit, I need to start being more aware of my surroundings.

As I carried on walking  I noticed the car slow down and drive along side me. I recognised the car but couldn't figure out where from. I was frozen to the spot when the car stopped and the window was wound down.

It was Harry.

"Lucy please let me explain myself, I know I don't deserve it and that I've treated you so badly in such a short period of time but I am just scared please" His eyes were looking straight into mine, glazed over with tears soon to spill.

I couldn't move or bring myself to speak, I didn't expect to see him again. 

"Lucy" I looked up to meet his pleading eyes "Please" he said his voice cracking. 

How could I not here him out, why did he keep putting me in these situations where I couldn't say no.

Authors note;

Sorry I haven't upated for a few days, I've been busy and was at my friends house last night so couldn't post from hers either!

Would be nice if I could get a few votes please guys???;) haha anyway I'll try and update every day if not it will probably be every other!