Unnecessary Communication: UNDER RE-WRITE, DIFFERENT BOOK AVAILABLE! SAME TITLE!

Chapter 5: Rydia's P.O.V

I hate walking to therapy. It sucks. I'm always afraid now that I experienced that little run in with that big asshole at the party.  But thankfully Sin is there to keep me company and make me laugh.

Sometimes he gives me a strange feeling in the pit of my stomach.  Almost like I know him, and what his intentions are in life.  But then I remember I just met him and barely even know who he is.

So today is Friday, and it is nighttime, thank god!  I’ve been on edge since the party and can’t stand being exposed.  Although I was barely harassed by the man, it just reminds me of a time where it was much much worse.

I was only seven when It happened.  My Mom’s best friend, Cindy, came over to our house for my mom’s baby shower.  Cindy brought her fifteen year old son, Steven, to the house to keep me company.  They said they needed their ‘womanly bonding time’. 

Steven and I went down to the park to play, or at least that’s what I thought.  He lead me on             the park trail in the woods, telling me there was a fort built just for me.  When we got to the spot, there was only a tarp covering a small part of the dirt floor, hanging in the branches.

When we went over to the spot he held me down, forcing me to do things I had never done before.  I have tried blocking out the moment from my mind, but I can’t help remembering his horrible grin in victory, or the way he made me stare into his dark brown eyes during his high.

Once we got back to the house, he made me swore I wouldn’t tell anyone, not even myself.  Every time he came over to the house, which was at least once a year until I turned ten and he eighteen, we would go to the park.  And every time I would fall for his awful excuses.

When he left for college he told me how I was a slut and was worth nothing in the world.  If I didn’t deserve a dad then I didn’t deserve happiness.  It was absolutely the worst time of my life.

Being with Sin makes me forget about Steven and his awful ways, and I know I don’t deserve Sin, but I’m selfish and want to feel this way.

As I was saying before, therapy is awful, but I go for my mom’s sake, and mine.  Thankfully when I go tomorrow Sin said he’d take me.

I snap out of my reverie, staring at myself in my bathroom mirror, deciding to just put my hair up into a ponytail.  I grab my favorite pair of jeans and fitted sweater and change, getting ready for the night.

I hear a knock at the door and run over to, asking, “Who’s there?

“Who do you think?”  I hear a familiar voice call from the other side.

I open the door, instantly engulfed into a hug by Sin.

“Hey!  Do you want me to fall over?”

“Hm, maybe that was my goal, you’ll never know,” he said smirking at me.

“So what do you want to do tonight?”  I asked him, looking up into his blue eyes.

“Well, I talked to Lake earlier and he said he was going to be at the café with Nitti and Whim and Rim.  So we could go meet up with them.”

I hit him in the arm, glaring at him.

“What did I do Darling?”  Sin asked me, rubbing his arm where I hit him.

“Their names are Lance, Nikki, Willow, and Rick.  Get it right.”

“Okay okay, sorry,” he said, holding his hands up in defeat. 

“And just so you know, I don’t want to go out.  We should watch a movie,” I said, smiling up at him.  I heard him groan quietly, but I still hit him.  “Go make popcorn and I’ll put the movie in.” 

I jumped up off the couch excitedly, dragging Sin along with me.  I pushed him in the kitchen and grabbed Eclipse from the DVD rack, wanting Sin to suffer.

I sat back down, cuddling Moses to my chest and waiting for Sin to come back out.  When he did he sat at the other end, pretending to eat all the popcorn.

I grabbed the bowl from his hands and stuck my feet on his lap.  “Tsk, tsk, tsk.  Now that you tried to eat all my food, you must allow my feet to be on your lap,” I stated, starting the movie.

He looked at me with a look I didn’t recognize, but he quickly covered it up by smiling at me.  “What kind of a statement is that Darling?”

“A good one, now watch the movie,” I replied while stuffing my mouth with the buttery goodness.

Throughout the movie Sin was tickling my leg, obviously not knowing he was because he laughed at the movie and at times looked really into it.

I on the other hand barely payed attention thanks to Sin’s magic fingers.

When the movie finally ended, Sin looked over to me with a look of excitement.

“I’m so happy she said yes,” he said grinning at me.

“Wow.  I’ve never met a man who actually got that in too a twilight movie,” I stated in actual awe.  I can’t believe he even stayed once I turned the movie on.  That definitely didn’t go as I had hoped it would. 

“I did it for you Darling.  I payed attention to the movie, even though I wanted to snap the DVD, I didn’t.  You know why?”  Sin asked with a serious face, looking straight into my eyes. 

He placed his hands on either side of my face, making me look at him.  I felt my face grow hot, knowing he’d see me blush.  “No, why?”  I asked him softly.

“Because I want you to be happy, that’s why.”  Sin looked at me with a softness, glancing down at my lips.  I knew what was going to happen, but instead of being scared, I wanted it.  No not wanted it, I needed it.

When he started to lean down, I slightly closed my eyes, waiting for his lips to make contact with mine.  And when they did I felt instant joy. My lips were tingling from his touch, warmth spreading throughout my body.

When he pulled away, he put his forehead against mine, stroking my cheek with his thumb.  I wrapped my arms around his neck, entwining my fingers with his hair.  I looked up into his eyes, smiling at him, taking the inituitive this time and kissing him on my own.

Our lips moved in sync together, sending a warm sensation throughout my body.  Needing more I tried deepening the kiss by nibbling on his bottom lip, but he just smiled, not giving in.

Soon enough though he gave in and our tounges began to dance together.  He wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me closer to him.

It seemed like we had been like that for hours, finally stopping when we were too exhausted to continue kissing.  In reality it had only been thirty minutes to an hour; and I loved every minute of it.

“Sin, thank you so much,” I whispered, stroking his face with my hand.

“For what?”  He asked rubbing my back.

“For being here for me.”

“Not a problem.  It’s what I do.”

I smiled at him and walked him to the door, saying our goodbyes and kissing him one last time.

The rest of the night I just smiled like crazy, confessing how much I liked him to Moses, not that he listened, and sang in the shower.  I swear I had never been as happy before in my life, and I can’t believe I had missed out.

I went to bed thinking about Sin non-stop.  Let’s hope I dream of him too.

{The song for this chapter is Smile by Uncle Kracker} ;)