Connor started ignoring me when summer came. I didn't understand. I tried to ignore it because I was in love. I never noticed anything wrong. Never, ever. Finally I got fed up. Lacey drove me to Connors. I knocked on his door. Connors dad was never home, literally never. So I knew Connor would answer. He opened the door. His jaw dropped. I stepped inside without being invited. " What the fuck Connor? You've been ignoring me for three weeks! If we're over tell me. If not you need to explain yourself. Now." I was pissed. Infuriated. " Natalia. Stop. Hold on, I'm cold. I need a sweater." Connor turned to his closet and pulled out a sweater. " bullshit you need a sweater Connor. It's 95 degrees out. Come here. Now." I demanded. I was so mad. I knew exactly what was going on. Connor looked ashamed, when he pulled the sweater off. He had cuts. More cuts than he's ever had. They were horrible they covered his arm up to his shoulder. I didn't know what to say. I really had no response. I was just shocked. I got up and held him. I buried my face in his chest. " why Connor? You promised! We had a deal Connor. I'm not breaking it. " I was so mad. Oh my god. " Don't you dare Natalia. Don't you dare. If you hurt yourself because of me I could never live with myself. I had to talia. I had too. I know I let you down. That's why I left. I've missed you so much, talia. I was just worried you would hate me. I just hate myself. I love you talia." He started to tear up. I wiped his tears away. While he wiped mine. " I'm disappointed in you. Not, because you cut, but you kept it from me. What happened to no secrets? What happened to our trust? How can I trust you now Connor! I just, fuck Connor. You not telling me made this so much worse. How long have you been doing it?" I was shaking I was so mad. I still can't believe he did this. " month or so." He said. I sprung off his lap. That was the end . I couldn't trust him anymore. I couldn't trust anyone. I just couldn't. " I'm leaving Connor. I'm going. Don't bother talking to me. I'm done with this." I got up and slammed his door. I collapsed on his lawn. Lacey ran over to help me. I was crying so hard. She thought I was going to go into a major anxiety attack. She was worried I needed an ambulance. Once I finally stood up. I saw Connor in the door way. Crying. He was just as hurt as I was.
I cried myself to sleep for the next two weeks. Never hearing a word from Connor.
