Niall One Shots

Relationships are About Respect

You and Niall had started dating and he knew that you were different when it came to sex. But Niall just thought you were holding onto your virginity until marriage.

But you weren't doing that. You just.... There was little to no sexual drive. It was rare you felt yourself get wet and wanted more than just the kisses you two sometimes shared.

You were asexual and you were confident in that. But this new relationship... It made you nervous about what would be done in the future between the two of you in regards to your physical nature.

You stare at the computer, chewing your lip slightly. The computer's history was on the screen before you.

Pornhub, Redtube, and other various sites' history was there. You sigh. You needed to address it with Niall. Tell him "what" you are.

What if he left you? What if he decided to leave you because you couldn't always be there to pleasure him in the way he absolutely craves? You just... You couldn't. You knew there would be a few times and times would come where you felt the need more, but those were rare.

With shaking fingers, you shut off the computer. You sigh heavily. What are you going to do? He would for surely leave.

Niall loved sex. It was obvious. You knew he had a fleshlight, he watched porn... Would he stay after you made it clear that you just don't... You don't feel like that? You loved him, you really did.

You were sitting nervously on the couch, picking at your jeans. How were you going to address all of this?

Niall walked into the flat, "There she is!" He grins and comes over to kiss your forehead.

God, you loved kisses. You loved the romantic affection and just that touching. Kisses were nice.

You smile up at him-though your smile was weak and didn't really reach your eyes. Niall frowns a bit, "Baby, what is it?" He sits next to you and rub your shoulder lightly.

"C-Can we talk about something?" You say, looking at your fingers.

Niall had a sinking feeling in his stomach. Fuck. Oh god, this was it. You were going to leave him. Maybe it was the media? His lack of being home? He tried to be home as often as possible... But maybe you couldn't-

"Ni?" You ask softly, having watched him zone out.

"Yeah, o'course. Just, know I love ya." He murmurs and cups your cheek.

You smile and rest your hand over his and pulls it down to put it back on his lap. "I love you Niall. A lot." You nod, "And this isn't you." You murmur. "This is just the way I am."

Niall frowns and rubs his face, "Pl-please don' leave me baby." He whispers and goes to reach for your hand. "I-I love ya. What we 'ave... I haven' felt like dis in a very long time." He chews on his lip.

You frown, cupping his cheeks, "That's not it at all." You shake your head pull him in for a hug. "I just need to tell you something that has been worrying me." You speak quietly.

"What is it?" He pulls away to look at you.

"I-I know you think I'm not into sex and that I am waiting until marriage but that's not it." You chew on your lip. God, he was afraid of you leaving him but now it was a lot of the other way around.

He frowns a bit, "Well, what is it then?" He asks, rubbing your arms lightly. "Ya can tell me anythin."

With a deep breath, you feel your cheeks reddening and you avoid his eyes. No. Stop. This is nothing to be embarrassed, ashamed or nervous about. If he doesn't respect this or respect you for it. You're done.

You don't need that. Or someone that doesn't respect you for what you feel. They can go fuck themselves.

You take another breath, "I'm asexual. But not sex repulsed." You say simply.

Niall stares blankly at you. "What?" His brows furrow. Asexual? Does that mean you like more than one sex? Or you like lots of sex, or-

"It means that I do not have a sex drive. For me, it's really really rare for me to be turned on and want more than just being with someone." You interrupt his thoughts.

"So we ain't ever gonna have sex?" He frowns a bit. Niall loves sex and here you are saying you don't feel that way.

This was it. The question. "I'm not going to say never. But it will be very rare for us to have sex." You bite your lip. "I-If you don't think you can be with someone like me. That's fine. Being celibate is not everyone's thing. But I just don't feel that."

"I never gotten you wet?" He looks a bit defeated. The amount of times you turned him on was crazy. And if he never turned you on-

"It's not your fault. I'm sure you do a great job. It just doesn't always do it for me... Well, it never does it-"

"Have I ever turned you on?" He asks seriously, you two have been together for a year now. And if he couldn't do it once-

"Yes." You answer honestly.

"So there is hope?" He raises his brow.

"I can't promise anything. So I won't." You chew your lip.

Niall takes a deep breath, "I think I need a few moments." He gets up and leaves the room.

What the fuck? After that speech about loving you and never feeling this way?

Niall paced in the other room. Okay. He loves you. SO much that it physically pained him. But at least you weren't sex repulsed. So sex could still sometimes happen. But honestly, now that he thinks about it, sex wasn't all that was to a relationship. It's been a year since he's had sex and he survived. He loved you and respected you and valued you.

Then why did he have to go think about it?

The front door open then slammed shut. Niall was confused and saw that you had left. He ran after you, "Y/N, where ya off to?"

"Obviously me not wanting sex every other minute seems to be a problem." You wipe angrily at the tears that fell. You shouldn't feel like this!

"No, no. I-I dunno why I said I had to think about it. I was bein' selfish." He murmurs and takes his hands in yours. "I love ya and I'm not losin' ya because you don' wan' what I do. Relationships are about respect and I respect dat about ya."

Your eyes water up again. "R-really?"

Niall nods, "Yes. Whether we have sex once a week or once a year, I love you and that doesn't change anything." He pulls you into his arms. "I just don' want ta lose ya." He says seriously.

You hug him close, "I love you Niall Horan." You whisper.

"And I love you. Nothing can change that." He murmurs.

Relationships are about respect. And he proved himself to be a respectful man and you couldn't be more lucky to have caught a guy like him.