Niall One Shots

Even Though You Don't Mean It

Prologue is found Part 13: And I Write Again, I Love You

Niall watched his phone, anxiously waiting for your response. It had been exactly 170 days since you walked out of his life. He was sure that you were forever gone. Ten days ago, he texted you.

Have you read the letter?

He didn't think you were going to respond at all. But two days later, you responded.

Yeah.

You weren't going to respond, you didn't think that you should. But honestly, it would be cruel if you didn't. So you thought.

In the last six months, you were slowly getting over him. You had your first date coming up in a week. You were excited for it because you finally felt confident enough to take that step. But your response to Niall opened the floodgates of talking.

But... Your stomach didn't fill with butterflies when he texted you. Not like it used to. Your heart didn't race, your palms didn't sweat, and you didn't smile.

It was like a chore.

Not for Niall. The moment his phone went off with your personalized text tone, his heart jumped to his throat. He could barely get his thumb to scan over his home button to unlock his phone. Only one word. But that word, for some reason, gave him hope.

Has anything changed for you? Nothing has changed for me.

His response was instantaneous, even though he wanted to be coy and wait to respond, he couldn't bring himself to do so.

The message made your stomach twist, feeling sick. You couldn't bring yourself to respond. At least... Not yet.

You went on your date. His name was Josh and you thought he was nice. You two agreed on a second date.

Has anything changed for you? His question echoed through your mind. It had been a week. You needed to respond. What do you mean?

Niall woke up to your text tone beeping, heart racing. You finally responded. His heart squeezed at your response. I am still in love with you. I am waiting for you to come back. His thumb hesitates over the send button before taking a breath and sending it. I've not stopped, Y/N. You're the first person I think of when I wake up and my last thought before I go to bed. I love you.

You bit hard on your lip. Did you love him? Oh yes. With everything you had. He was your first love, your first boyfriend you lived with... All of it. You would always love him because of the special place he held in your heart. But... Were you in love with him?

You weren't sure, if you were honest with yourself. For the last year of your relationship, he had turned into a selfish being, really only focused on himself and his problems. It broke your heart. You started falling out of love with Niall more than six months ago. You were falling out of love with him for the last year, minimum. The break up solidified it.

You couldn't answer him now.

Another two weeks passed, two more dates with Josh, and still no response to Niall.

Niall was second guessing himself constantly in those two weeks. He came to the conclusion that he should not have sent any those text's. It was heart breaking that you never responded. He couldn't get you out of his head during his press conferences in Australia. Niall was excited for it, but with no response couldn't stop thinking of you.

He saw the pap pictures too. That stupid Josh fella. Holding his girl's hand, paying for his girl's meals, kissing his girl's cheek.