One Shot Compilation

Fan Fiction-Kim Jongin

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The phone beeped and as expected, you received a text from him. Not just the kind of text you were expecting. You suddenly screamed out of frustration. Good thing you're living in a soundproof condo unit because you don't want anyone to hear you letting out your anger.

You and Kai had been together for 9 years already and have been living together for almost a year now. Your relationship with him is going smooth although there are ups and downs. You've been each other's shoulder to cry on and someone who can rely on.

But then, all relationships have complications. And here's one of them. For the past 9 months you have both been busy because of your studies and him, his obligations as a member of the world famous boygroup, EXO. Even though you're busy, you made sure that you have time for him. You secretly hoped that he was doing the same thing for you.

For the past three months, things had changed. The sweetness of Jongin towards you is not the same as before, if you ask him if there's any problem he will look at you as if you spoke using another language. You decided to be posistive and think that all these actions is just because of him being tired.

Little by little, you were getting stressed out because of him. Just like in his message earlier.

Kai: Hey Y/N. I'll be home by 9 o'clock. We still have to practice this choreography into perfection.

Yet another date he scheduled and forgot about. T'was the 3rd time this week. Sometimes, you wonder if he still loves you and was just staying with you just for show. You didn't want to be more stressed out so you decided to go to your room and sleep rather than wait for him to be home because you know that he won't be home at 9:00.

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"Argh! Y/N! Wake up!" you woke up because of Kai shouting. As expected, he came home later than 9:00. He was leaning beside your door frame, arms crossed and irritation is etched across his face. You got up and rubbed the sleepiness out of your eyes.

"What?" you asked slightly impatient. He better not wake you up just for nothing.

"Why didn't you cook anything?! I thought I told you that I'd be home after practice?! Why are you so useless?!" his last words surprised you. This isn't the first time that he shouted like this in 9 months but it was the 1st time that he said that you are useless. It stung like hell but might as well not show him that it hurts.

You groaned, "It's because I assumed that you were going to eat with the boys! You did not tell me that you'd eat here." Finally standing up, you went to the kitchen followed by Kai who asked you to cook his chicken, his favorite food. You were setting the table when you suddenly felt nauseated so you clenched the side of the table and steadied yourself but continued to set it.

"What's taking you so long Y/N?" he shouted impatiently from the living room. You suddenly felt the side of your eyes heat up. 'No. No. No. Don't cry.' You thought to yourself as you called him.

"Are you really my girlfriend?" he asked while eyeing you. You felt the budding tears at the same time you felt a wave of nausea again so you ran to the bathroom.
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As soon as you were done, you washed your face with warm water and looked at the mirror. You were surprised to see Kai looking at you with an expressionless face.

"Y/N,are you sick? I heard you vomiting." He asked with a hint of concern in his voice. You quickly arranged your emotions to neat rows and faced him. The news you were about to tell him completely forgotten.

"Don't pretend that you care. I might end up hoping that it's true. No. Must be the food that I ate before I slept. Anyways, I'm fine." You lied, anger seething your voice. He nodded and walked back to the bedroom. You fixed yourself and followed him out. You saw him already covered in blankets. You lie down beside him turning of the light on the bedside table. He didn't even move an inch, completely engrossed in whatever he was doing with his phone.

''Night." You said facing your back towards him and pulled the blanket up to your chin. You felt him move and put his phone away as he face his back to yours. "Night." He mumbled.

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Kai's already asleep and you're still up thinking of options. Thinking about the options and things that would happen if you leave him. It hurts but you just can't stop yourself.

If you leave him, there might be a chance that he would be happy. It hurts just to think that he would be happy without you. But come and think about it, you might find someone that will love you more than you loved him and he will find someone much better than you.

If you stay, yes, you're happy with him. But waking up to see that he doesn't even care anymore, it's like waking up just to find out that you're already in hell.

You considered the first option and got up from bed to get dressed. You pulled out a suitcase silently piling your belongings to avoid waking him. Doing all these while the tears kept falling. You started to get up after closing the suitcase but soon froze when you saw him move and you breathed out in relief when he continued his deep slumber. You found a pen and paper and started to write a farewell later to him.

Dear Kim Jongin,

I love you. Always remember that. But I can't be with you anymore.

I was so happy when we started to live together. I was thinking about all the nice things that would happen but our life living together was not as I imagined it to be. Yes, we were okay the first few months but these last three months you made me feel unloved. I let it pass the first few times it happened but it went on. You were treating me like your servant, ordering me around and taking out your anger on me, sometimes you'd hit me. Not like the way you treated me when we were still living separately. You treated me like your queen back then.

I miss the love that we shared. I miss your sweet kisses that you used to wake me up in lazy mornings. I miss your warm hugs. I miss your being there when I need you. I miss you. But most importantly, I miss 'us'. I miss the things that we always do together. I miss everything about us. I'm still mad at you though. You were busy with your 'practice' when I needed you the most. In case you didn't know, my dad died last month. Don't you worry now. I found a way to adjust to the changes permanent changes. I found a way to grieve without having someone by my side. Without having YOU by my side

I guess I did a good job back there. I'd like to wish myself a good luck living without you. I wonder if I'll be able to do that. I also guess that the love that we shared for years is wasted now, isn't it? Our 5th anniversary passed without you greeting me even once. Actually, I think I need to get used to that.

I'll leave you now. I hope you find someone better than me. I hope that you will be happy now that I left you. You'll always have a special space in my heart. You're my first love. Nothing can ever change that.

Saranghae oppa~

The one who loves you,

Y/N

You neatly folded it after writing then went to Kai's side and bent forward to kiss his cheeks and forehead for the last time. The tears started to fall again when you kissed his forehead and looked at the clock. It's already 2:00 am. You quickly but carefully placed the letter at table beside Jongin and grabbed your car keys and wallet on your way to the door. With one last look on his angelic face, you whispered 'I love you, Jongin-ah. Always and forever." As you closed the door and went to the parking lot.

While you were on your way to nowhere in particular, little did you know that Kai woke up confused when he saw the neatly folded paper and that he was alone in the bedroom.

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Author's Note:
This is my first time na magsulat ng fanfic. Panget ba? Huhu. Anyways, may part 2 yan. Hihi. Pero matutulog na talaga ako. 1:45 am na. Goodmornight.