The Moody One (Osomatsu-San Fanfic)

Chapter 2

It was getting late. I had to go home eventually.

By the time I got back, dinner was over. Not that I cared. I barely ate nowadays. Karamastu was quietly talking to Osomatsu and Choromastu on the couch. He's probably told them already. I tried to enter nonchalantly, resisting the urge to eavesdrop.

"Hey Ichi." Todomatsu greeted me politely, still on his phone. I guess no one told him yet.

"Hi." I said passively, walking past my three older brothers and into the bathroom. They didn't even acknowledge me. Whatever.

I took off my clothes and stepped into the shower. The cold water felt refreshing but hurt just a bit, the way I liked it. Aftering showering, I wrapped a towel around my waist and brushed my teeth.

I looked at my relfection in the mirror.

Scum.

I know.

You're nothing.

I know.

Trash. Worthless. Waste of space.

I know. I know. I know.

My gaze left the mirror and went down to my arms.

Those cuts and bruises are trash too.

I know.

"Muscle, Muscle! Hustle, Hustle!" I heard outside. Jyushimatsu must've gotten home from playing baseball.

"Whew, Jyushimatsu you stink! Go take a shower!", someone laughed.

"Oi!"

I could hear footsteps approaching the bathroom. I tried to slip out unseen, but was too late. Jyushimatsu slid the door open. "Oh! Hi Ichimatsu-niisan!". I greeted him briefly and attempted to leave. He blocked the doorway.

"Hm, what's that on your arms?" Jyushi asked innocently, his smile unwavering.

Fuck. Jyushimatsu was the absolutely the last person I wanted to find out.

I lied, "Just scratches from the cats, you know how clumsy I am.".

Jyushimatsu paused, taking in my excuse. "...Well okay then! Be careful next time!"
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I couldn't sleep. I had to make sure that Jyushimatsu didn't find out. I rolled over to where Karamastu was sleeping and flicked his face.

"Wake up, you asshole."

Karamastu opened one eye groggily. "Hmm?"

"About what happened earlier..." Karamastu opened both eyes in attention.

"I don't know if you told Osomatsu and Choromastu and I don't really care, but you have to promise me that you won't tell Jyushimatsu." I prayed that the rest of my brothers were sound asleep and couldn't hear me.

Karamastu was quiet for a minute. "I didn't."

"Didn't what?"

"Tell Osomatsu and Choromastu. I wanted to, trust me. But I didn't."

"...Why not?"

"I don't know..it didn't feel right, I guess. I won't tell Jyushimatsu either." I silently let out a breath of relief. "Can you promise me something though?" I nodded hesitantly.

"Promise you won't do it again. I mean, last time we were all so scared-"

"Yeah, yeah, I know." I didn't want to bring that up again."I won't do it again. I promise." In the back of my head I knew I couldn't actually keep that promise. I'm too fucked up. I'll try though.

I'll try my best.