Anime One-Shots

A Lone Christmas ( Endou x Tsuda)

(A/N: I am spending one of my first Christmas with no one, or should I say no presents or people to be accompanied with it. Gathering all the yearning for love and loneliness, I thought of this, though I am pretty sure this may not even be updated on Christmas Eve, maybe yes if I am lucky.)

Relationship ( So Far ;] ) :

Endou and Tsuda' relationship hasn't really advanced much, only what has happened in the manga, the kisses and somewhat of a confession, though it isn't exactly official.

Scenario :

It's Christmas Eve, and it was Endou's tradition to go to stay up until 12 so that he could open his present with his family, but ever since he came out to his family, their relationship wasn't as stable as before, and since he was in college now, he didn't have a reason to fake it anymore. Initially he'd planned on spending time with Tsuda, but since their relationship was a bit more on the long distant side, because of Tsuda's constant business trips, so having too much anxiety to even try and asking Tsuda, he decides to be alone for the first time on Christmas, realizing how lonely it is to not spend a holiday with the one's you love, or even just the ones who pretend to love you.

~Endou x Tsuda~

A Lone Christmas

>Endou's PoV<

"Honey just put your sweet lips on my lips, we should just kiss like real people do-" (Like Real People Do by Hoizer)

I threw my headphones on the floor, it's the day before Christmas yet I am here listening to a sappy playlist all by my lonesome... Thinking even more about it, I half-laughed, half scoffed, just what you'd expect of a music major.

Picking up and dusting off my precious headphones, I put them back on, finding that a new song had begun to play. I sighed, things never last do they, thinking back to how calm everything was in highschool.

So... energetic.

Remembering the old days, I faintly recalled the slight grin that would make it's way onto Tsuda's face as if he were also admiring the old, good times.

Just like how the song had reached it's end, I felt a sudden drop in my stomach, telling me that thinking about him won't bring him here, it's almost as if he's gone all together...

"There's no point in drowning myself in even more sadness", I mumbled, listening to a playlist titled "Unrequited Love", but it's not like my feelings aren't for Tsuda aren't mutual... we have kissed..

Suddenly sitting upright, I gave my phone - my current source of music - a serious look, he did pull back and runaway that one time... but he came for me that other time and we made up, so it's alright, right?

Looking at the notifications on my phone, I checked for any texts, none.. he does know it's Christmas right? Don't couples usually spend each other texts on occasions like this when they can't meet...

The sinking feeling returned once more, making it's presence even more known than before, a-are we even a couple... we've never really told each other that we love each other.. Suddenly, a new revelation came to me, one that I wish never came to me, what does he think we are? Does he think that I only want the affection? O-of course we haven't really gotten past kissing, b-but we haven't even done anything like holding hands or a proper hug or- or-

Face reddening at what I wish we could do, I was aware that such a thing wasn't dirty or perverted in anyway, but keeping the fact that we may just be friends with benefits, something like cuddling seems so distant.

The warmth expanded to my ears, yet my embarrassment was no match for the sunken feeling I had in my heart, I don't want to be an object to Tsuda, I don't want him to feel forced to comfort me and be there for me.