Zendaya and Bella (Another story of us) -ON HOLD

Chapter 24- Big mistake

Zendaya's pov:

I don't remember half of what i did. I mean i slept with i don't know how many men and woman. I even fucked the principal of the school. Bella is the one who told me about it. I feel so horrible. Bella was elsewhere, no where to be found. She must didn't want to be around a person who constantly cursed her out infront of people and in secret  embarrassed her to death. I stood infront of the bathroom mirror in the girl's restroom.

Since that night Bella wouldn't talk to me. I told her how sorry i was for having sex with her future bf and that I hurted her. Honestly, I don't know who I am anymore. Why did this have to happen to me? Of all the billions of people in the world, why me?. I really didn't mean anything I said. I was just confused. I could hear Bella's voice in my head telling me how useless i was. That i was ugly, dumb, a whore and a bitch. I know Bella she would never say those things and mean it. Then it launched right to my heart and believed it. All my life i would pass by those pretty blonde headed girls, with nice sized tits and a nice ass and i wish i was them.

I've always wanted to be something that im not. Many boys tell me that I'm pretty and all but they don't mean it. They'll say anything to get into a girl's pants. I've had many boys in the pass who touched me and there was nothing i could do to stop them. I was scared to tell them no. I see Bella tell a boy no all the time and he stops and listens. That's what was going on with Kenton.

Bella just doesn't understand. My mom told me when a boy says " Hey you pretty, i like yo ass, i like yo shape" it ain't about nothing. I've had 34 boys tell me that when i was only 10 years old, that's right just 10 years old. Just imagine what they say now that im 16 years old. They pretty much don't say anything they touch me. I mean everywhere. And im scared now because all the boys are going to come at me for more. I only had sex with Kenton and Roshon.

Bella caught me fucking them at the same time. You just don't know how embarrassing that is for your best friend/sister to catch you being a whore.  And yes i was possessed and i still felt the pain of sex. Well i didn't know it was about these boys, they always want something. Im not Bella, i don't want a million boys having sex with me. She can deal with it all. I mean don't get me wrong, i love Bella. I mean i love her in a girlfriend kind of way. I wanted her so bad and i still do. At this school it changed my life. I had no clue i was bisexual, until I came to this school. It's like this school changed who I really was inside. Maybe I should kill myself and end it all.

     I digged through my purse to find a bottle of pain pills. I was just about to put like 30 pills in my mouth when a girl walks in. "Why so many pills?" she looks at me. I shrugged and continued what I hadden finished. She walked over to me and took the pills away."What's wrong?" she asked. I then recognized this girl, she was a girl I had manipulated while possessed.

To be continued