Black Butler x Reader

Modern!Ciel x Reader Part Three

Mirror

With everything happening today,
You don't know whether you're coming or going,
But you think that you're on your way,
Life lined up on the mirror don't blow it.

Things weren't so great with you and Alois. It had been a few months of you two being together but his moods towards you were getting worse, and you've thought about leaving countless of times... But you somehow couldn't.

Look at me when I'm talkin' to you,
You looking at me but I'm lookin' through you,
I see the blood in your eyes,
I see the love in disguise,
I see the pain hidden in your pride,
I see you're not satisfied,
And I don't see nobody else,
I see myself I'm looking at the.

He'd constantly scream at you over little things that you didn't think mattered. When you looked at him, it wasn't the same person you fell in love with.
But you could see his pain.
You could see the love.
But you could also see this isn't what he wanted.
But you couldn't see yourself with anyone else.

Mirror on the wall,
Here we are again,
Through my rise and fall,
You've been my only friend,
You told me that they can understand the man I am,
So why are we talking to each other again?

You looked at yourself in the mirror, tracing every bruise formed by him. You let the tears flow freely down your face, not understanding why you're going through another heartbreak. Not understanding why no one can love you without hurting you.

I see the truth in your lies,
I see nobody by your side,
But I'm with you when you're all alone,
And you correct me when I'm looking wrong

He'd lie and say he wouldn't care if you left, but you saw right through it. If you left he'd have nobody by his side and that was something you couldn't do to him. He'd always try and help you follow the right path, even if he was steering to the wrong.

I see the guilt beneath the shame,
I see your soul through your window pain,
I see the scars that remain,
I see you, I'm looking at the mirror on the wall.

When he'd see the bruises on your arm when you wore sleeveless dresses you could see the guilt hidden in his eyes, and you'd catch glimpses of scars from his past.
But you'd still end up crying in front of the mirror.

Mirror on the wall,
Here we are again,
Through the rise and fall,
You've been my only friend,
You told me that they can understand the man I am,
So why are we here talking to each other again?

You kept asking yourself the same old questions, but no new answer would reveal itself. You didn't know what to do anymore but you still kept going. For him.

Lookin' at me now I can see my past,
Damn I look just like my fuckin' dad,
Light it up, that's smoke at mirrors,
I even look good in the broken mirror,
I see my momma smile that's a blessin',
I see the change, I see the message,
And no message could been any clearer,
So I'm starting with the man in the...

You screamed as you punched the mirror, watching it break. You were relieved that he wasn't home. You decided that you needed a change. You decided you needed to go. Away from the presence of Alois. Away from the memories of Ciel. Away from who you are and be someone else.

Mirror on the wall,
Here we are again,
Through my rise and fall,
You've been my only friend,
You told me that they can understand the man I am,
So why are we here talkin' to each other again,
Mirror on the wall.

You left a note on a mirror in lipstick for Alois to read. It was the least you could do. Because after hours of debating you decided it was best if you left and never came back, but maybe that wasn't the best decision but maybe it was needed. You slowly walked out the door, looking back one last time before shutting it slowly.

A/N
Dayum. Well. Here I am.
I couldn't find a song and kept putting it off.
Sorry if this sucks. If anyone knows a better song I'll do an alternative.
I was reading through the comments and you guys are so cute.
Hope you guys had a great Christmas. I'll hopefully update something tomorrow morning or Monday night, if you send me requests ehe.

I LOVE YOU ALL MY MARSHMALLOWS.