everything happens for a reason - chapter 1

chapter 9

Chapter 9 

I plopped down on the rock wall dangling my feet over the edge. There used to be an amusement park not too far outside of town. There's a huge lake and a rock wall for a dam, we used to come down here and hang out all the time. I never thought I'd come back here after I moved. I wanted to be a better person and change myself. I put the top of the bottle to my lips and took another mouthful and swallowed it down. The tequila burned a little but it was still my favorite drink because of how fast it got you messed up. Well some habits never change I guess. 

I felt more tears threaten my eyes and I didn't even try to stop them now. Its been an hour and a half since I left and I've been crying since. "I can't believe this.. And I really thought I loved him...I thought he loved me" I whispered to myself as another tear slid down my cheek. I took another drink and threw the half full bottle to the bottom of the wall. It smashed of the rocks and the liquid mixed in with the water and washed away. "I'm done" I half yelled as I stood to my feet. 

I kicked the heals off the wall that were sitting next to me and watched as they fell and hit the rocks below. I took a few steps over to the middle of the wall where there were more rocks and some water. Another tear slid down my cheek and I closed my eyes. I really wanted to do this and I jus didn't care who I hurt anymore. Theres so much pain in my life I jus can't help it anymore. The tequila started to set in as I felt my body going unsteady. My mind clouded with racing thoughts and I took a deep breath... "Alexice stop ! Please don't do this ! I love you don't do this !" I heard the too familiar voice yell from beside me and I looked over. 

"go.. Awa..y spe..ncer" I yelled obnoxiously turning my head back. That's such bullshit. I love you. those words are just BULLSHIT. My thoughts were slurred and swirling. 

"no ! I won't leave until you come back here, come home with me, get sober, and let me explain. If you still want me to leave you alone after that I will but don't do this. Not here. Not now." he took a few steps toward me and I drunkenly tried to step off the wall. I landed on my butt on the edge of the wall with his arms wrapped protectively and tightly around me. I tried to push them away but my drunk ,unsteady hands weren't on my side. I gave up and let the arms wrap around me and pick me up bridal style without hesitation as I was being carried off to the side away from the wall. "alexice I love you so much. I don't know what I would've done if you had fallen.." he whispered and everything went fuzzy then faded to black. 

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ 

"Alex, Alex baby wake up, come on." I heard a voice coo next to me. He was running his hands through my hair and shaking me slightly. I opened my eyes and my head started to pound making me dizzy. I was about to throw my arms around him and kiss him but the memories of the day before flashed through my head. 

I rolled over and threw my legs off of the side of the bed. I got really dizzy but I didn't care. "what do you want spencer." I said standing up. I lost my balance and felt his arms go around my waist. 

"alex, baby, please just sit down and listen." I turned my head slightly. 

"no you listen. My life has been full of heartbreak and I don't need anymore. So just go home and let me do what I'm gunna do." I said standing up again, this time using the side table for support. I made my way over to my dresser where I kept a bottle of pain killers for the frequent headaches I got from stress. 6 extra strength should be enough for now.. 

"alex it wasn't m-" 

"don't you dare say it wasn't your fault. Every guy says that and its always them. I'm not stupid spencer." I fought back. I put the pills in my hand and grabbed the bottle of water off of the dresser that I put there 2 days ago.