everything happens for a reason - chapter 1

chapter 13

Chapter 13

I heard a tapping below my head, then the thunder and the rain. I opened my eyes and jumped at the sudden movement outside my window.

“oh my god ! Spencer !” I unlocked the doors and quickly jumped over to the passenger seat.. “Jesus Spencer, you’re soaked !” I yelled at him.. He should’ve called me before instead of standing out in the rain like that.

“yeah, yeah, oh well.” he said completely blowing off my statement and leaned over, scooped me out of the seat like I weighed nothing, and placed me in his lap. I felt the tears sting my eyes as I remembered why he was doing this. I wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my face in his shirt. 

“oh Spencer ! It was horrible ! She told me I was worthless and she tried to drink herself dead ! I don’t understand why she’d do this !” I cried.

“sshh.. Its okay..  She’s probably just upset or not in her right mind right now.. I don’t think she meant it, you could never be a waste of time..” he cooed stroking my hair.

I snapped my head up. “you don’t understand ! You didn’t see the look on her face..” my face and voice dropped along with the fresh tears that were forming in my eyes a second ago. “..she meant every single word she said.. What am I gunna do Spence ? I couldn’t even control myself long enough to hand her the rehab paper..” I pulled it out of my pocket to show him and sighed. He looked over the paper and raised his eyes to my face. He cupped my cheek with his hand and wiped away my tears with his thumb.

“I love you. It’ll be okay. I know its real crappy right now and I know you feel like you’re spending most of your time crying and hurting.. But it’ll be better soon..” his nose started to turn red and his eyes filled with tears. My heart ached.. Its wasn’t a tolerable throbbing, or an intolerable stinging and ripping.. It was an utterly painful, and undeniably the worst feeling I’ve ever felt in my life. “if things don’t clear up soon, and I have to see you hurt like this again.. I will do everything in my power to beat some fools and fix it. Even if it takes my last breath to do so..” a tear dripped down his face. The ache in my chest settled in, as if making a new home.. 

I pressed my lips to his and tasted the saltiness of my tears. “I love you too.. Please don’t cry.. I don’t like it..” I whispered on his lips and rested my head on his shoulder and wrapped my arms around him.. He mimicked the embrace and we settled there as if holding each other from falling apart anymore than we already did.. 

It felt like we were only sitting there for a few minutes when I felt him kiss my neck by the top of my sweatshirt, and start rubbing my back.. “hey, look at me..” I picked up my head and opened my eyes. I rubbed them to stop the stinging and rubbed my face to wipe away any lingering tears.. He cupped my fce in his hands and pressed our foreheads together.. “I love you.. You know that.. And I know you love me.. It’ll be okay. So lets go back home and eat and watch a movie with kat to take your mind off of it and we’ll come back when you’re ready.. Okay ?” he pulled his head back and looked at me, then softly pressed his lips to mine.. He pulled back and I looked at him and he smiled. I half smiled back and moved over to the passenger seat.