The Dark Lover Lestat Book One

BEHIND THE MEANING

I brought my portable CD player down stairs to the kitchen. I took out a coke from the fridge and took a few long sips then put Lestats CD in it and turned it on. I sat down at the kitchen table listening carefully for any clues in the lyrics. The song Redeemer came on and Les tats voice made me feel as though I'd done something dirty, yet it made me feel alive.

 

(The hunger inside, given to me. Makes me what I am. Always it is calling me. For the blood of man)

 

I pushed my eyebrows together and took another chug at the soda and set it down. It seemed as though Lestat made it easy for people to understand what hes feeling. Like in the mind of the vampire.

 

(They say, I cannot be this. I am jaded, hiding from the day. I can't bear, I cannot tame the hunger in me. Oh, I say, I did it. Always searching. You cant fuck with fate. So instead you'll taste my pain)

 

"Cannot tame the hunger in me? Well that's just a lie, you could of killed me you dumb ass but you didn't" I rolled my eyes.

 

(The hunger inside given to me. Makes me feel alive. Always out stalking prey, in the dark I hide.)

 

Then i thought about it (Was i one of his prey? Was I a hunting game?)

 

(Feeling, falling. hating. Feel like I am fading. Hating life.)

 

I skipped to the next song, already understanding the meaning behind Redeemer. Next the song was System. I had heard and watched  that one several times on MTV. It gave me chills every time I had watched it. Lestat made him self look like a demon longing to become good? It was actually kind of confusing. In his music thats what I came to conclusion to.

(You fell away. What more can I say.The feelings evolved. I won't let it out. I can't replace your screaming face. Feeling the sickness inside. Why won't you die? Your blood in mine. We'll be fine.Then your body will be mine)

 

"So hes attacking some poor human and saying how he needs to kill but It really does effect him emotionally?"

 

I sat there then a tiny smile appeard on my face. "His big bad figure isnt as bad as he wants people to think" I said to myself smiling even more.

 

It was interesting to me because in his journal i had received, Lestat always made fun of his old companion Louis for feeling terrible for drinking from people. This made me excited for some reason. It wasn't really a lead but it was something I discovered and It made me somewhat respect Lestat a bit more. He wasn't some complete evil blood sucker, but did deep down feel remorse. After a few minutes song number three was Slept so long.

 

(Walking. waiting. Alone without a care. Hoping and hating. With things i cant bare. Did you think its cool to walk right up to you? So save my life and fuck it up. Well did you, well did you?)

 

I was confused bout the first few lines, I didn't understand them at all until the next few lines basically gave me the biggest hint of all.

 

(I see hell in your eyes. Taken in by surprise. Touching you makes me feel alive. Touching you makes me die inside)

 

I paused the song and blinked a couple of times and thought it over. (Hell in your eyes? Taken in by surprise? The Egyptian woman. Her eyes made you feel like you were in hell. At least that's how she had made me felt in my nightmare, and she was scary, like she drank from someone’s heart saying not to be afraid, then suddenly Lestat is her property. I believed she had something to do with those lyrics in Slept so long. Hell maybe she had to do with every song of his, but I was for sure going to take Lestats journal to my professor Mr. Talbot the following day.