It Went a Little Somethin Like this

Gone

         This is it, the official day that Edgar was graduating. The last day, I couldn't believe it, at the time I had been with Edgar for almost 3 months. As I came to school, it seemed so empty, because the 8th graders were not there. I felt a little down, but all I had to do was fake a smile and everything was 'okay'. As the bell rings, I enter the building, walk up the stairs, and looked to my left where Edgar's locker was at. No body was there, but, I just intended to have flash backs and, imagine he was there. I would think about the funny,silly, cute moments we had together. I had been standing there for a few minutes now, as I then go to my locker, getting all my stuff ready slowly. No body had said a word to me that day really. They knew I was upset, and hurt. Just like how I always was. 

           I was then off to science, although I am sure you already know my schedule by now. It was very quiet, still had to do work, and more. I am pretty sure that day was just so, depressing, and ordinary really for everyone.  I then went off to math, as of that time, I believe the 8th graders graduation had started. My friends had tried making me feel better, keeping my mind off it, and making me laugh, but I didn't want to be happy ! It was only going to last for a while anyway, until I will realize again, Edgar is going to be gone, and I can't do anything or change anything. It was, what it was, that's life for you. Filled with disappointments.

      It was then near the end of the day, I was with my friends again, as we partnered up, doing work. We didn't really work but, we did talk when the teacher would leave for a bit. I remember my friends and I had a personal talk, about life, keeping secrets, and such. Although they weren't much of a secret anymore. We also played games, and then, we talked about the graduation, and relationships. That's when I wasn't feeling it anymore, but I still answered the questions they had for me about Edgar. They had the same questions I had asked Edgar at the time, and so I just replied with the same words Edgar had told me.

         It then had became quiet, and we finally went back to work. I kept on thinking, about what I was going to do, what I should do, what will happen. You know, the same old things. From there, time had pretty much went by really fast that day, and so the day ended. I go to my locker, get my stuff together, and ran out of the doors.  Running out of the doors, I had spotted Edgar, I became happy, as I yelled at him saying 'WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!?!?' as he replied with 'I came here for you' I looked down, and I started to cry, while I hugged him. He told me that he will come every day after school, til school ends for me. I was planning on not going that whole week of school, but when he had told me that, I did attend school for the last week, never had I missed a day for him.

       The week was already almost over, I couldn't believe it, summer vacation !! It's funny, because in the beginning, I wanted it to be summer already, but, until I met Edgar, I now didn't want school to end. I didn't want summer to come just yet. I was crazy in love with this guy, I would even kill myself for him. My own life, just for this one guy. Okay, maybe he wasn't all that, he's not THAT good looking, his personality, not everyone would like, he wasn't exactly perfect, but nobody is. But I accepted the fact and realized that, all those imperfections, I loved. Others might think I am crazy and brain washed, that I didn't know what lies ahead of me, but, I did know. I just refused to believe in it.

        It was the last two days of school left, I don't remember much of it really. Other than myself being depressed every day, at that time, my friends were dating as well, so they didn't really pay attention to me nor care anymore. As I tried being positive and happy, I wasn't, I tried making new friends, but I just didn't fit in. I never really did.

       All I remember, was sitting on the bench that Edgar and I would always sit on together. I would put my head down, hugging my knees, crying, thinking of Edgar, I was really broken. I.... I could feel that sharp pain, stabbing my heart, making it ache and feel such pain, that it killed me outside, literally. I didn't want to talk to anyone, I was sick of talking, and losing people, I had lost everyone, even my boy friend. I didn't want to live anymore, I wanted to sleep forever, I was really down at the time. I was a flame on a candle, still burning, but was starting to blow out. It was the people, the carbon monoxide, putting my flame out, running out of oxygen, I was almost dead.

      Sitting there, alone, brain dead, I had heard a voice. It was calling me, as I heard it louder and louder 'SKYLAR!!!' I then looked up, it was Derick. He exclaimed how Edgar had came for me, in shock I looked at him. I couldn't believe him, he always played around too much, I then became angered,and told him to stop lying. He had given me a puzzled look, and said 'Fine, don't believe me !' I then ignored him and put my head down. But as I was putting my head down, there he was, I.. I couldn't believe it, I thought Derick was lying, but he wasn't. IT WAS EDGAR !! I became so happy, I ran to him, and held him for quite a while. I then let him go and asked him what he was doing here, as he got defensive a little and said 'Why? You don't want me here? Ill just go home then' I started to become angered, but I calmed myself down and replied with 'NO!! I just, can't believe you are here' he then lost interest in me. He then started to look for Kieth, and just.... ignored me. It was as if he didn't know my pain, and when he asked me where Kieth was, I, I wanted to scream at him.

      From there I could tell that everything was going to change, he was changing. After all he is a teenager, a year older than me in fact. Obviously. I mean, I knew he was older than me since the beginning, but I never thought that he would change so much. I should have seen that coming. I knew from that very day, not only was he leaving, but my boyfriend was changing, and he would soon be gone.