It Went a Little Somethin Like this

Time Is Ticking

         There it was, last day of school. I couldn't believe it. All this happening, it was just too much on me. The night before I had talked to Edgar, but he told me he wasn't going to come tomorrow at the last minute. Which I will admit, that did put me down, after all it was THE LAST DAY !! I felt stupid, I didn't even want to go to school that day, or ever. I just did it for him, but he never knew.

     During the day, I decided not to even think about it, and just enjoy it. I talked to all the people I knew. As of my old classmates, after transitioning to a new class, I started to believe that moving was a mistake. I was just so excited for the opportunity, I immediately said yes without even thinking. About all the things I would lose, my best friend, Bella, everything. I wasn't even close to Bella anymore. That hurt me, oh who am I kidding? Everything had hurt me. I'll admit it, I'am a sensitive person. I was weak, tired, just a little scared creature, unaware of real pain. I had never experienced the real world, I didn't know such evil as of now. I didn't know love, I was a lost duckling, clueless, and now..... lonely.

  The day is continuing, as it goes by in a flash. Playing and talking with friends, I thought about what I would do with Edgar. How everything would work, if we would even still date? But even if we were, how would it work? How would it even be possible. Another thing to know about me is that I'am very doubtful, of everything and anything really. As of Edgar, I tried coming up with possible solutions, but all my ideas were shot down, soon enough my mind went blank. I just started to realize that it just wasn't going to happen. I had to accept it, but accepting it only killed me.

    We had a little party later on, I sat down with my friends, playing games on my phone, talking to people. Nobody seemed to please me. I grabbed my phone again, I started texting Edgar during school. Everybody knew I was sneaking around, talking to him, as they would tease me. Until, I noticed something, it was Giovanni, he didn't seem to do anything really. But I have to say, that day he looked, AMAZING !! I still remember his outfit. As he was wearing a suit, all red, with a black tie, so fancy, and confident. I actually liked that. I get another text, as I focus back on Edgar. At that point I was really scared. I was unsure of myself and now my feelings too. I guess Edgar wasn't the only one changing. That's what happens over time. Expect changes because, right now, time is ticking.