Dear Caspar

Dear Caspar,

It's three am,

and I'm sat here crying,

in the back seat of my dads Toyota.

Not that you care,

or that you needed to know,

but my feet are curled up,

black converse against the seats.

I would care,

but my dads gone so I don't.

I watched your video,

and you seemed so happy,

when you where to be an uncle.

Then you turned so heartbroken,

when you found out it was a prank.

I'm sorry you didn't get what you wanted.

And you may think it's a stupid thing,

to get upset over...

But I have realized,

that our problems,

may never be as bad as someone else's.

But there our problems,

things we have to face everyday,

which makes them a struggle to us.

And it's okay to be sad.

It's just a feeling after all.

One of the strongest.

I've been talking with my counsellor more,

as well as Rylee.

She went on about how you once,

answered her question,

on Twitter.

Caspar she talks about you and Joe,

as if you two put the stars in the sky.

I of course am no different,

but that's why you need to stay.

You where given such a beautiful life,

saving others.

But even with that gift,

you can't save the ones who don't want to be saved.

Keep safe,

and have fun for me,

okay?

I love you Caspar,

along with so many other people,

you're our gift.

Please don't forget it....

Love even after I die,

October

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