Falling For You (A Seventeen Joshua fanfic)

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First I wanted to thank all of you for the 12k reads. It's unbelivable how this has grown. And second I apologize for posting late again ;-; But I hope you enjoy~!

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Joshua's POV:

Why.. Why did she break up with me? Thousand thoughts are all racing through my head. 'Guys you eat first, I'm not hungry.' Everyone gave me worried looks but I wouldn't care. I walk to my room and lie on my bed. I close my head and search for peace in my head. Someone knocks on my door and I stir so that my back is turned towards the door. 'Don't come in.' I hear the person scold me behind the door and a few seconds later someone sat beside me on the bed. I turn to look at him and smile half-heartedly. S.Coups hyung gave me a smile full of pity and rubs my shoulder. 'So.. Why did you bring that girl?' I shrug my shoulders. 'I don't know hyung, I really don't know.' Now that I think of it, I seriously have no idea. Why did I do that? 'Isn't she your girlfriend from America?' I nod as the answer to his question. Wait.. we never really broke up. Aish Joshua you idiot. But.. Do I want to break up with her.. too? 'Hyung..' my voice becomes whiny all of a sudden. 'What is it?' 'I still love her.' S.Coups let me sit straight and holds my shoulders with his hands. 'You still love who?' 'Her.' Her name just can't get out of my mouth. 'Joshua, you know I have no idea who you're talking about.' I sigh and look him in the eye, a tear rolled down before I finally say: 'Both.. but I still love Valerie.' He nods in response while sulking a little. 'Do you love her more than Jiyeon?' I think of all the things I went through with Jiyeon and with Valerie. They're all so different.. but all unforgettable.

After 5 minutes of thinking I finally know the answer to his question. It is probably the hardest question I will ever receive, but I finally know the answer.

'I love..'

Jiyeon's POV:

The autumn breeze is very soothing. It makes you forget about most things. The streets are already decorated with beautiful Christmas lights and people are still walking outside, either alone or with friends. I sit on a bench under a huge willow tree and look at the moon. 'It's almost full moon.' I say to myself and smile. I always looked at the moon with Josh.. my smile faded away and my mind got bombarded with thoughts of Joshua. The autumn breeze now became chilly and saddening. Tears formed in my eyes again and I hug my knees. It's so unfair.. everything is so unfair. My debut is delayed, Joshua's girlfriend is back and I even live there. I have tons of friends whom I'm really thankful for but it's just different. The feeling of having someone you can cuddle with, express your love with and just be happy whenever you are with them. That feeling is seriously the best.. and now that I don't have that anymore.. My tears kept flowing at the thought of Joshua. Even though I keep telling myself that this was the right decision, but I know I'm lying to myself. I rest my head on my knees and sniffle. Luckily no one would even care to talk to a crying girl on the streets..

'What's wrong miss?' I hear a man's voice and I look up to him. 'Ah.. Nothing. I'm sorry.' I bow my head to him and rest my head on my knees again. 'Aren't you the girl Jae talked about?' Jae..? 'How do you know Jae oppa? And he talked about me?' The man nervously rubbed his neck and smiles at me. 'Yes, I assume he already told you he's in Day6. I'm Kang Younghyun, but you can call me Brian or Young K, whatever you prefer.' I nod and give him a half-heartedly smile. 'I'm Jiyeon.' He sits beside me and offers me his handkerchief. I still have Jae's handkerchief though.. I politely refuse his and take out Jae's out of my jacket. I hear Young K snickering and look at him. 'That's Jae's, right?' I nod and give him a confused look. 'Why?' he shakes his hand and smiles while looking at the lit street. 'He never lets us touch his handkerchief. Ever.' 'Is that so?' I look at Jae's handkerchief and brush my thumb over his initials. 'Do you want me to call him?' Right now, I really do need him. I nod quietly and let him make the call.

Jae's POV:

'What? How come you're with her?' 'Yah! Don't even make fun of your hyung, I will kill you with my own bare hands!' 'Wh-what? She's crying? Where are you?' When Brian told me where they were I immediately put on my jacket and shoes and basically ran out of the dorm. I hear Dowoon calling after me but I am in a hurry, sorry little maknae.

I arrive at the street he was talking about, now I have to find them. I look around and notice Jiyeon and Brian sitting on a bench. 'Jiyeon!' I run without any thoughts and stop in front of her. I look at Brian and he nods right away, noticing my sign of I-can-handle-this-myself. He stands up and walks away. 'Jiyeon..' I sit next to her and look at her shaking hands, her head is hung down and once in a while I hear a faint sniff. 'Look at me.' I cup her head with my hands and lightly force her to look up at me. Because it is so dark I can't see her face clearly, but the dim streetlights enlighten her swollen and red eyes. Tears are still rolling down her face and it literally breaks my heart to see her so.. broken, lost and lonely. I take her shaking hands in mine and rub my thumb to let her know that it'll be okay, since I'm here, and I'll always be here, to help her. 'Hey Jiyeon, what happened?' She looks into my eyes and stares at me for a few seconds before breaking down in tears again. 'Don't cry.' I wipe her tears and notice the handkerchief on her lap. 'You still have it.' I smile to myself when she nods but my smile faded again after realizing what is really going on right now.

For minutes, I'm not able to say anything. I just listen to Jiyeon's crying sounds. 'it's over.' She suddenly says. 'It's all over.' She stares blankly at the ground. 'Jiyeon, nothing's over. Yes, one door closed but there are so many other doors you can open.' I stroke her hair in a slow movement. 'Hey, it's going to be okay.' My body suddenly went by itself and hugged her. I myself widen my eyes and I feel Jiyeon tense up a little bit but she quickly relaxes and leans her head onto my shoulder.

Jiyeon's POV:

I felt Jae coming closer and not even one second later he is hugging me.. It was a great shock at first but I feel comfortable in his arms. They're strong, they make me feel like I'm protected. I lean my head onto his shoulder and cry my last tears. My eyes are getting too dry because of all this and I shouldn't cry. I'm the one who broke us up. I'm the one who ended everything. It was the best decision. It really was.

Jae hugs me for quite a long while. He kept patting my back which felt nice. But after noticing I wasn't crying anymore he let go. I suddenly feel empty again, unprotected. It's like I'm lost without any protection although Jae has showed he will always be there for me, it just feels different.. 'You should go back to you house, it's getting late.' He stands up and offers his hand. Home.. I can't go back there. I can't face him after today.

'I.. I can't go home.. I told you, right?' Jae put on a thinking face and suddenly his face changes to a sad one. 'Oh yeah, right.. Uhm.. Do you have any other place to go?' I shake my head and bite my lip. Apparently a little bit too hard since I tasted blood all of a sudden. 'My uncle's house is too far, and I don't know anyone in this region.' 'Oh..' He suddenly shakes his face and I cock my head to the side. 'What's wrong? Why are you shaking your head?' 'No no, just a thought but it doesn't make sense.' I pout and poke him. 'Come on, tell me.' He awkwardly rubs his neck and smiles at me. 'I thought maybe you could spend the night with us, but that's just a crazy idea.' 

Actually.. 'Well, I live, or lived with 13 guys, I think I can handle 6.' Jae got lost in his thoughts but then he suddenly grabs my hand and pulls me up. 'Let's go, since they've been wanting to meet you too.' He smiles and puts and arm around me. He talked about the Day6 members the whole way, and to be honest it was a nice distraction.