BTS Imagines

Fools//Namjoon AU

Okay so Namjoon's and Jungkook's cover of Troye's song was giving me serious feels, so I had to write an angst featuring every Army's Favorite Leader. This probably sucks and makes no sense but okay.

I am tired of this place, I hope people change

I need time to replace what I gave away

And my hopes, they are high, I must keep them small

Though I try to resist I still want it all

I peeled open my crusty eyes. I fell asleep crying, and I could feel the dried tears on my face. I sniffed and cleared my throat. I sat up and then got out of bed. I shuffled to the bathroom and turned on the shower. I stripped as I saw the bruises that covered my body. I stepped in the shower. I was crying again, but I needed to stop. If I came out looking like  a mess, people would ask questions. See, no one in this town changed. They were nosey as heck. They didn't even care they wanted something to talk about. I wonder if I will even see him today.

I see swimming pools and living rooms and aeroplanes

I see a little house on the hill and children's names

I see quiet nights poured over ice and Tanqueray

But everything is shattering and it's my mistake

I took a deep a breath as I left the house, and walked. It was the same neighborhood.

That lonely house stood tall as the kids played at the bottom of the hill. I didn't come home that night.

I had plucked up the courage to see him.  His friend opened the door.

"Maybe you shouldn't be here (Y/N)" The orange haired kid said.

"Jimin let me in please" I said practically crying. He sighed as he ran his fingers through his orange locks.

"Fine"

It was eerily still at his place and I saw why. He was surrounded by empty bottles of various alcohols, and stared blankly into space.

"Namjoon" I breathed. He turned slowly towards me.

"Get out"

"I'm-"

"Don't say sorry, you fucking left. You said you never would. You were my ride or die. You promised (Y/N). You promised" He said his voice breaking.

Only fools fall for you, only fools

Only fools do what I do, only fools fall

Only fools fall for you, only fools

Only fools do what I do, only fools fall

He was doing it again. He was twisting it around, now it was my fault.

"Don't. You pushed me away. How can I defend you, when I have to defend myself from you? You hurt me. " I said, but it sounded pathetic.

"I love you"

It took every fiber of my being to not say the words he was waiting for. I loved him. He hurt me all the time, but in some sick way I still loved him. I couldn't say it. The outcome would be the same. He would hurt me one way or another.

"Say it back" He commanded. I stayed silent. He came closer.

"Say it back!" He yelled, as he lunged for me. Jimin pushed me out of the way. He held Namjoon back.

"Leave," he grunted, trying to keep his hyung under control.

Oh, our lives don't collide, I'm aware of this

The differences and impulses and your obsession with

The little things you like stick, and I like aerosol

Don't give a f***, not giving up, I still want it all

I remember meeting him. We couldn't have been more different. I was a weird girl who liked to watch things burn and he was a notorious bad boy who drank heavily. But I stayed with him. Even after he placed his hands on me in a violent, malicious way. I stayed.

Only fools fall for you, only fools

Only fools do what I do, only fools fall

Only fools fall for you, only fools

Only fools do what I do, only fools fall

I was dumb. He didn't love me. Maybe he did. I don't know. It wasn't love. I realize he loved to hurt me more than he loved me.  It's my fault. I could've helped. I just let him destroy me, and himself. I liked to watch things burn and I watched our relationship burn.

I see swimming pools and living rooms and aeroplanes

I see a little house on the hill and children's names

I see quiet nights part over ice and Tanqueray

But everything is shattering and it's my mistake

I sat on my porch with Jimin. He was sipping on the tea I made him, and I was playing with a lighter.

I was still in the same neighborhood.

"I left him" I said quietly.

"So did I" Jimin replied.

I looked at him instead of my flame.

"We missed you at the funeral" He continued.

"I was in rehab".

"Oh."

"Yeah. Oh"

"The others blamed you, but it wasn't your fault"

I just listened.

"I haven't talked to them in six months"

I sighed. I even burned a friendship, a brotherhood.

Jimin placed his tea next to him and took my hand. He pulled me to the top of the hill.

"Do what you need to do"

I screamed. I didn't shout words. I just screamed until my throat was raw and burned like the flames that I played with.

I was breathing heavily, when Jimin pulled me into his arms.

"It's going to be alright" He said quietly.

And I believed him.