Blackmail

Chapter 21

Chapter twenty-one

Connor's POV

About two hours later we were still sat in the bedroom, not a single word passing either of our lips. I guessed that both of us were scared to break the silence looming heavy in the air. I rested my head in his lap, my eyelids becoming heavy as he played with my hair. I supposed he was sleep so I let my mind wonder. It wondered to the future and what it held. Would we make it out of this? The last thing I wanted to do was cause Troye more pain than I already had. My thoughts came to an abrupt end when I heard little whimpers, sobs coming from Troye. Sitting up I looked up at him, seeing the tears running down his face. Bringing my hand up I wiped them away, he looked at me with his big blue eyes, I could almost see them pleading for help.
"Tro? What's wrong?" I asked, not moving my hand from his cheek. He didn't answer, he just dropped his head and stared down at his lap, almost scared to look up at me.
"Troye, please tell me." I begged. He finally looked at me, his eyes shiny with tears.
"I-It's just, I know you need me to he strong for you, and I don't know if I can do that, not right now anyway. I-I want to be the guy you deserve, that can stand up for you and always be there but..... I can't... And that's what kills me inside, knowing I can't always be strong for you." He stuttered. I sat, speechless, my mind running through his words. I shook my head and dropped my hand from his cheek, taking his hand.
"Tro... I know you can't always be there, and that's okay. Honestly it is. Sometimes, I wish I was stronger, so I could be there more for you. So, please, don't blame yourself for this. What we're going through right now, that's not us, that's Tyler." I said, choking back my own sobs. I lay my head on his shoulder and wrap my arms around his waist.
"Please don't worry Troye, I-I know it's hard, I really do. But we need to be strong... For each other. Okay, lets make a promise." I said sitting back up and holding my pinky finger out. "We'll both stay strong, for each other." I smiled. He chuckled a little before wrapping his own finger around mine. I leant my head back on his shoulder and smiled to myself.
"Did we just seriously make a pinky-promise?" He laughed.
"I think we did." I replied, laughing as well. "Oh well, as my Mum says 'there's no point being an adult, if you can't act childish sometimes.'"

So that was a shorter chapter than normal, sorry. I have no idea why but I struggled to write this chapter. So, again, thanks to snowflaze for helping me with the idea! Thank you so much for 312 view because..... Wow. Okay that's me done <3 ~amazingphillove