Dark Secrets (Jason Mccann)

What is Love? (Part 9)

Elizabeth’s POV

My eyes lightly opens as I heard someone walking out of the door of my bedroom. Was it Jason? Of course it was. Who else is in this house besides me and him? Yeah.

My fingers travelled to my forehead, which felt quite unusual. It felt like someone has given it a kiss. Like, a feeling of someone has kissed you, gently. Did someone actually kiss my forehead? Who?

I know this is weird.. But Jason came up to my mind. I shouldn’t, it’s wrong. More than wrong. Love is forbidden right? Like Jason said, I can’t have any feelings towards anyone. Especially him. I can’t. I should stop thinking about him. And his lips. His eyes, and that little smirk.. No, stop, Elizabeth!

I should stay away from him. Avoid him as much as I can.

I don’t want to go into the dark spirits.

I can’t fall in love.

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Jason’s POV

At this moment, everything feels so wrong. But I wanted it to happen. I wanted to break the rules. I know I’ve only seen her for a couple of days. How did this happen? I’m not me, when I’m around her. But I like how it felt being beside her. I wanted to hold her hands, kiss her, make her happy.. I want to love her. I want to feel love.

But this is wrong. This is very wrong. I can’t like her. I’m her guardian, my job was to guard her, not fell for her. I have to protect her, even though I know pain is what chasing me. I don’t want her to go to the dark side. Never. I wanted her to join the light side, with me. I want her to keep her innocence. I want her to be her. I don’t want her sincere heart turns black, like every dark spirits. Like Charles.

Charles Key. I will always remember his name. And words that describes that name. Disobeyer. Betrayer. Hater. Selfish. What else, you name it. As a light spirit, I forgive him. But would not forget our dark history.

I can’t let her fall into Charles’ hand.

God, what is this test? My eyes was watching the moon, observing it’s light. I used to think, nothing can shine more beautiful than the moon, but she proved me wrong. I wanted to protect her. I need to. Have to.

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“What is love?

 

Is it a dream? A fantasy? A hope? A promise? Or is it just love? Most of us felt love, but what does it really means? What is the definition of love? What does it feels like having someone you love, loves you back? To hold you? To tell you that you’re all they ever need?

To me, love is all of those above.

As we love someone, we made a dream where both of us could be together, for an infinity. A dreamt of all the beautiful moments to enjoy with them, and we dreamt of a funny story to share.

As we love someone, our mind creates a fantasy to us. For girls, we’d always fantasized of becoming a Cinderella, where our prince charming would look for us. For guys, we’d always fantasized our dream girl would be for us only. And we’d fantasized the most ridiculous moment, where everything is perfect.

As we love someone, we hope. We hope that everything turns out well. We hope that neither of us broke our promise. We hope that we would cherish every beautiful moments. We hope to never be left alone. We hope to always be by their side, and we hope they never leave our side.

As we love someone, we made a promise. We promise to hold them close. We promise to make them feel safe, to protect them. We promise to always have each other’s back. We promise to stay together. We promise that we wouldn’t break anyone’s heart. We made a promise, to be us.

As we love someone, we just simply love them, just the way they are. Not because of what shape, size, skin color, face they are.. We love them for what’s inside of them. We love them for the good things they did. We love them for being nice. We love them, because they are themselves. That’s what love is.

And I’ve found the right one to love. But I can’t keep loving. I have to stay away from love. Because in the end, love is what will harm us. I have to keep my feelings to myself. I have to cry by myself. I have bear with this pain. I have to hold on to life. I have to fake a smile. Because I don’t want my love to knowledge my sadness, only because of love.

Love can be a wonderful thing. Love can also be a cruel crime. Especially to me. To us.

That’s what love really is.  

 

                                                                                                         -Elizabeth & Jason "

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"you think you know how this story goes, you don't" 

haha that's what my sister ask me to tell you guys what's gonna happen next. 

So, jason and elizabeth huh? What do you think about that? 

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