kat :: lrh (discontinued - read edited version!!)

eighteen

2 Months Later

He is out of control, and that's all I can say.

He was drinking like crazy, but rarely ever doing drugs, but still doing it, and I missed him like hell.

I spent more time with Michael than I did Luke, at this point. Being around the drugs wasn't good for the baby, and watching him drink made me want to cry, so I wasn't around him much.

I knew he didn't want me around anymore, and I was fine with that. He isn't ready for a baby. All I had to do at this point is wait, wait for him. I knew how to do it, too. I spent three years waiting for him, and I sure as hell know I'll be weak doing it again, but I can make it now if I could make it then. Barley, but still.

I would love to have Luke help me through pregnancy, but I know he doesn't want to help me. He wants to sit around like we always do, not wait for this baby's arrival, go to all the doctors appointments and the bullshit, he didn't sign up for it, but I assume he will get over it. He'll make it through like he always does.

Michael: you up?

Michael tended to text me every day before making his way downstairs. He knew that I wasn't a heavy sleeper, and I would wake up to the slightest noise, and since I was basically living with him, he needed to know if I was awake before coming downstairs since he didn't want to wake me, other than when he had to work.

Me: yep, but I think I'm gonna go home today. i miss luke so much

Michael: that's good, you should

I set my phone down, standing up and making my way up the stairs and into the bathroom, quickly undressing and stepping into the shower.

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"Luke?" I call, walking into the apartment.

I made my way into the bedroom, the apartment looking dirtier than usual.

I open the door and there he lies, but not by himself.

I find it funny that I leave because of him, and he cheats on me while I'm pregnant with his child.

But this isn't just any person who hasn't caused a lot of shit in the relationship.

The one and only Karen.

"What the fuck?!" I yell, both immediately waking up.

"No, Kat. No, it's not what it looks li-"

"Don't pull that bullshit with me, Luke!" I shout at him, "I don't deserve to be lied to anymore."

"No, really. Listen to-"

"Don't even talk to me, Karen." I shake my head, "You've caused enough."

She stands, putting her hands out to me.

"Don't." I demand, moving away from both of them, Luke reaching for my wrist, "Don't touch me."

"Baby, I didn't do anything with her." He says, his face saddened.

"I don't believe you." I scoff, "And God, I don't know how I trusted you in the state you've been in. I'm pregnant with your child for fuck's sake."

"Wait, what?" Karen's face turning confused.

"Of course he didn't tell you that! I'm pregnant, Karen."

"We didn't do anything, he's not lying." She states, "I would never do that to you."

"I don't believe you, you've both destroyed me inside enough already that-"

"Stop, Kat. We didn't do anything!" Luke shouts at me, moving closer to me, "God, she came here last night because I needed help mending my relationship with you and she's the only person I know that knows us both well enough to help. She fell asleep in here, I thought she was gonna leave."

"I'm going." I mumble, pulling my suitcase from the closet.

"Please don't leave. I miss you." Luke reaches for me.

"Don't speak to me. Don't contact me. Don't expect to be called when I'm in labor." I begin to cry, quickly tossing clothes into the suitcase, zipping it and standing, suitcase in hand.

"Kat, listen to me!" He screams, pulling on his hair roughly as I flinch back.

"God, what do you want from me!?" I yell back, my cramps kicking in, "Oh, God."

"I just want you to understand that I'm not cheating on you with your sister! God, I already did that to her, why would I go back to her when I'm in love with you, and I basically used her to get to you in the first place!" He shouts, Karen flinching back.

"If you candy it to her, why can't you do it to me?" I look at my feet, a few tears falling from my eyes.

"Because I love you." He lifts my chin, wiping away my few tears.

"I don't know if I should trust you." I mumble and he nods.

"I understand if you don't."

"But I love you." I whisper back, "And you need to stop fucking up. God, choose if you want to help me raise this baby or not. If you want to help me through this pregnancy or if I should just leave."

"I'm staying. I'm helping you through it." He says, pressing his lips against mine.

He doesn't deserve for me to kiss him back, but it's hard for me not to, considering I missed the way his lips molded with mine, the warmth on his lips.

"I have to go." I whisper, pulling back from him.

"No you don't." He smiles, his hand resting on the small of my back.

"I'm going to get my stuff, and I'm coming home, but really. You can't fuck up like this anymore, or I'm leaving. For good." I mumble to him, picking up my keys from the table, "I'll be back."

-

I didn't know what to do in this chapter but some shit went down more shit will go down soonnnnnnnn

Also i have a flight home today since I've been in Atlanta for a week please pray for me I'm terrified of plane crashes

But thank Jesus for my mom who bought me sgfg on iTunes today and blue neighborhood by troye sivan so that I'll at least die listening to my loves

And also my dads also known as one direction

But I guess since you can write offline I'll be writing on the plane if my brother is asleep bc who wants their brother to watch them basically write porn

This is turning to be about me back to the book

Also who likes Troye bc i love him

But what should Luke and Kat's ship name be like help me please

Okay happy new year and you're all amazing so have a great day or night

Ily

Kay xxxx