happiness&sorrow

chapter 7

as we walk back down the railroad tracks slowly in the order of marie and jake out front and then dylan and brooke,lastly me and brett. we all talked about just anything really, laughing and chatting like always.we finally come across the bridge over this really big pond.still nothing out of the ordinary as we come across the bridge towards the end.we get about twenty feet away from the end of the bridge and the next sound to fill my ears made my heart shatter.i looked around at everyone.

marie,she's fine.

jake,also not a scratch.

fuck it wasn't brooke.

dylan,also fine.

wait....i know i'm fine,

as i turn around my heart shatters into a million pieces as i fall to my knees and pull him tightly into my arms.....brett h-h-h-he's g-g-g-gone,d-d-d-dea i can't even say it.i hold him tightly and cry hysterically.that's all i can do is cry.i don't even know what's going on around me anymore.i don't know how long i sat there with him in my arms.screaming and crying hysterically,but eventually i was being pulled away from him.they were literally tearing me away.all i remember was crying and screaming out his name.well needless to say for the next two weeks i was just empty.there was nothing left but emptiness.in those two weeks alot happened.when bretts funeral come no one would let me go for the fact they were afraid i would completely break down.which is understandable because for two weeks straight i stayed locked in a bedroom alone and wouldn't speak to anyone.....and i mean NO ONE!well nobody thought i was ever gonna be the same,but eventually i realized brett wouldn't want to ever see me this way. it would kill him all over again if he seen me this way.i've only ate enough to keep me alive basically.as far as communicating it was only simple yes or no nods of my head.so yes like i said i did get better after say give or take two weeks.but now here i am nine years later and still to this day i remember him like it was yesterday that i seen his gorgeous,sweet face.i remember every thing about him.there's not a day that doesn' go by that he doesn't cross my mind. so not only did i come to my senses after my extreme grieving but also learned a lesson.never take life for granted.yes he may be gone from this world physically,but he's still very much alive in my heart and with me every day.

so that's my story i hope you enjoyed it.

a/n plz anyone who has read this plz plz plz comment let me know how it was thank you