2016
Shitshitshit
It's fucking 2016 and I'm still a lard ball. Disgusting fatso
Ugh. I really want to cut but I'm with my family at our grandparents, and there's no scale here and I know I gained from today. I ate way too much. WAYYYYY too much. I feel gross.
I had half of a bagel this morning, then we went out to lunch and I had like a cup of peanut noodles. For dinner the family was eating pulled pork sandwiches, but I'm a vegetarian, so I ate hors d'oeuvres. The hors d'oeuvres were crackers and expensive cheeses. I ate too many and I didn't get to workout and I know I gained and I'm freaking out.
Ughhhughughhgssrghiaujknfsqw
I felt weird and kind of out of it dizzy-ish all day, and I'm not really sure why because I'm definitely eating too too much.
The only kind of workout I got was when my family and I climbed up to Monticello. It was 2 miles up and down the mountain. I feel like I only burnt less than 150 calories and I have no idea how many I ate.
Tomorrow WILL be better. I'm going to skip breakfast and just have coffee. When My family gets pizza for lunch, I'll go to an Asian place and grab a miso soup. I will wear my heart rate monitor when we go ice skating, and I will count every single calorie I consume.
I honestly can't wait to leave and for school to start so I can really get in to the swing of things. I can't wait to leave Charlottesville.
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Losing Alexa
Non-FictionEating disorder journal. Me, losing myself. My food intake, struggles, successes, breakdowns, and my story will be written here.
