Tuesday, February 2nd
My mom confronted me. She layed on my bed going on on how she wants no NEEDS me to want to be healthy and happy. She needs me to do this and that. She needs me to outline a recovery plan myself. She cried and asked why I do this.
I stayed silent.
Not ready.
No
No
No
Sorry
No
Nonononono
Maybe my head is sick but my body sure isn't.
I binged last night. I ate dinner and 2 bowls of ice cream. Ya know, because I'm a fat ass. So I'm fasting for 3 days or as long as I can.
We're doing birthday stuff for me this weekend so I'll have to eat Saturday. I'll try to fast until then, to prepare.
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Losing Alexa
SachbücherEating disorder journal. Me, losing myself. My food intake, struggles, successes, breakdowns, and my story will be written here.
