My Depression Story/Rant Book

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The day finally came for me to go the the new school. I came late about 10 minutes but it was a meeting so it was ok...I think. At the end of the meeting the guy talking excused the highschool students to go first.

I didn't know where to go so I asked this nice lady with bluish black hair. She told me what room. So I made my way to the class.

When I walked in I was nervous like really nervous I didn't talk to anyone. A couple girls introduced themselves to me, but all I did was smile slightly. I scanned the room and in my head I said "Ignore" or "Talk to" as I glanced at each student. They were all ignore.

At the end of the class I went to the front and talked to the teacher. She was a nice lady, about 5'4 silver hair that went down to her shoulders.

I asked her "what class am I supposed to go to? I wasn't here for anything." She said "Math I think, that's where everyone else usually goes at second period." She looked over to another student that was packing up his things and said "Alex, will you take her to room 128 please." "Sure, I headed there now." We left. As we made our way to the room, he tried talking to me. It was very uncomfortable. "So how do you like it so far?" He said. I like that he wanted to talk to me that was nice, he was kinda cute too. "Good." Was all I could say.

When we got there it was small like really small only seven people! Way different from public school. It was pretty easy, the math, but I was confused. I was doing algebra11 in my last school but here I was doing pre-algebra. It was really easy. I didn't have to study which was good I guess.

At lunch it was brutal. I didn't want to talk to anyone. When I finished lunch I went outside and stood at the railing. I looked down. I thought, what if I jumped? No more misery, no more life, I'd be happy.

I put my foot into the railing until some girls came out and I quickly put it back. They talked to me. They were tall, skinny, probably did sports. "Hey, why are you out here all alone? Why don't you come in and sit with us?" I followed them in. I sat in a chair with the rest of the girls.

Shortly after I went outside again and sat on the wall. I brought my knees to my chest and put my head on them while wrapping arms around my legs. I cried. I was sad that I was there. Forced to go to a school that I didn't even remotely like. After a while I stopped crying and just stared at the freeway that was about 100 feet away.

A girl came up to me and said hi. I said hi back because I didn't want to be rude. She said "Can I sit with you?" I was about to say no but then I don't know I said yes. She sat down and we talked. Her name was Maddie. As we talked I thought maybe she would be my friend. Later on she did become my friend. We're really close now.