I haven't seen my friends I'm two weeks due to Christmas break and I'm going back to school soon. Me being lonley and having nothing to do has caused me somethings. My mind wonders to places I haven't seen in a while, the places I go to are very bad. I hadn't seen those places in a while but since my mind has wondered I had been having those thoughts. Thinking and dwelling on the thought of my friend who hasn't barley talked to me the past several weeks.
I try to reason saying that she might be stressed, but she has been talking to my other friend on the bus ignoring my existence. You see since the beginning of middle school we sat in the same seat everyday together. The weeks she has been sitting with out other friend, not like I felt left out already.
And awhile ago my other friend she was talking to our youth group leader at church. She said that she wanted to distance herself from other people. And she brought up being gay and saying she didn't know how to talk to them, knowing I came out to her being pansexual.
That definitely killed me inside.
I don't know what to do anymore, my friends are saying what I like are bad because I'm christian. I don't know. I don't know anymore. They bluntly said "you know those things aren't good for you".
Well those 'bad' things helped me more than they do.
