Nothing lasts forever

Shattered glass

The sunlight peaks through the boarded windows, shining in my eyes. " Finally , you're awake " AJ says, clearly not a morning person. I got up, and got my backpack and sleeping bag together. " here ". Kaylen said , tossing me a can of corn. I look , with no desire to eat. " I'm not hungry ". I said , placing it down on the dusty, old side table. " you need to eat, you need the extra energy. " I don't need it , I can take care of myself"! I snapped. I calmed a bit , and said " I don't need your help...ok". everyone at this point was staring at me. " last time I checked you almost died, from lack of sleep and food, and-" I cut her off , and said in a loud stern voice. " you don't know what I've been through" " yes I do, you stopped eating cause you didn't want your sister starving. you didn't sleep because you wanted to keep your sister safe. " kaylen stopped. and said " and you almost died, gave up your life, to save your sister, you don't think we do that for each other ? cause we do, we suffer as much as you do! so don't make it all about you, cause all we have is each other ." she said, tears welling up in her eyes. she walked passed me. " we need to get back on the road, let's go " kaylen said, with no emotion in her voice.

~ 1 hour later ~

" where did you last see her go when she ran off"? Natalie said, looking at different points of the place where I could've had my peace, where I didn't have to worry. Is it wrong to say that, I just want to give up? just to be ' ok ' again? " down this way " I said , pointing my finger where I stood when I last saw her small face , dirt and walker blood stained on her clothes, some on her face. We started walking down that way. Calling out her name every once in awhile . We heard breaking twigs in the distance, leaves crunching every step that person or those killers took. We ducked down behind a bush, being cautious. " t-Tyler"? I heard a scared , fracked voice say. I stood up , and saw my little sister, standing there. " Christian "! I yelled and ran to her . I was about to hug her when she stepped back. " Che-Christian , w-what's wrong" I said, getting on my knees and put my hands on her shoulders. " what's wrong "!? I nearly yelled , shaking her a bit. " Tyler ". I heard from behind me, to look at Natalie . She had fear in her eyes, as well as sadness and condolence, as well as everyone else. I looked in confusion. I turned back to my little sister. she was crying, " I'm sorry I wa-wasn't s-s-strong enough". She said, lifting her shirt to reveal a chunk of meat that those , those monsters did.
I started to cry , I cried so hard that I never knew I had in me. I hugged her tight and close, listening to the last of her heart beat. Letting her cry on my shoulder. " it's o-ok, you'll be ju-just fine, alright" I said , trying to control myself. she didn't move, i didn't hear a thing from her. I laid her in my lap. she was frail , and she was ice cold. Her skin was no longer the beautiful tanned skin she once had. She was pale, with a hint of blue. I felt tears rolling down my face, I rocked back and forth to try and contain myself from screaming but , it was no use.
" NO!!!! NO NO NO! , WHY...." I yelled out, bringing her life less body close to mine.i cried, " I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough to keep you safe, I'm sorry I failed you like I always have. I'm sorry , I'm sorry that you had to call me your big sister" I whispered, loud enough for the others to hear. I felt a hand on my shoulder, and than I felt a warm body against my back. " it's going to be alright, she's in a better place..." kaylen cried , " it should've been me". I said , having shocked looks my way. " what "? kaylen said, with a strained voice. " it should've been me, I should've been the one, and nobody would have to go through this , this mess, the mess that I made "! I said. I looked at my sister before I said my last goodbye, and stabbing her in the head so she wouldn't turn into...into those monsters.

That day, was the day everything changed. That was the day my life completely got turned upside down. That was the day I gave no emotion. That was the day when my glass heart, that was easy to see through and easy to be broken but was strong at the same time, and easy to relate to was now just... shattered glass.....

Hi!! Ok so I know I haven't update in awhile, even though nobody reads this book. But I will try to go through with this book. But I hope you enjoyed and have a good day/night/morning. BYE my elephant babies!!!!❤️