Dead To Me ~ Jerrie Thirlwards

4

Jade refused to look at the person embracing her. She wanted to deny the way it made her feel. Deny the warmth it gave her, the comfort she felt. She wanted it to all stop. She can't do this to Perrie. Jade eventually gave up and just leant into the touch, letting this person comfort her as she cried, as the tears fled down her face and rolled onto the picture, her favorite picture. Jade didn't want to ruin her picture but she couldn't stop crying, and the person was doing nothing more than holding her.

"Jade, are you alright?" The person, now known as Niall, asked, stroking Jade's hair softly to comfort her. Jade could only hiccup in reply, desperately trying to wipe the fleeting tears from her cheeks with her thumb. "Jade, you don't seem alright. I won't leave again, alright? I care for you far too much." Niall said, picking up Jade and carrying her into her living room, away from the pictures of Perrie. Jade still firmly gripped the photo from the dance however, leaving her emotions in a whirling frenzy. She felt loved by Niall, guilty about Perrie, and all around sorrowful. She clung onto that photo like it was her last shred of life, her last fiber of hope, like it was the last memory she had with Perrie. Jade almost refused to speak to Niall, insisting she'd feel better if it was quieter. Niall knew better and kept attempting to engage in a conversation with Jade, failing miserably. Jade truly didn't want to be talked to, however, and Niall was only testing Jade's patience.

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Perrie had been moping around for days, disappointed in herself. She couldn't find a job, she couldn't get accepted to a college, it was ridiculous! She had one mindset for her money plan, and that mindset was writing. It reminded her of Jade and it gave her a good place to start. She could write a "journal" book, and have it printed under a false name, like Samantha Gray. No one besides her friends could know of her actual name, no one. Perrie could wear a brown wig and and gray contacts, a good disguise. She looked to Jane who had been asleep for a while, and realized she had no way to contact Cora and Jace.

Perrie made her way outside and stood on the balcony, looking up to the clouds.

Nothing. I can't see them. F---!

Perrie cursed quietly and walked back inside, deciding now was as good a time as ever to go to sleep. Perrie crawled onto the spare mattress Jane had on the floor for her and spread out, covering up with a blanket she had left on the chair beside her. When Perrie shut her eyes, she desperately tried to not think of Jade, but ended up having a dream about their past.

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Jade was tossing and turning for the umpteenth time that night, and Perrie was nowhere to be seen. Perrie came in moments later, obviously very shaken. It looked like she had been crying, but if Jade saw Perrie, she'd know for a fact that it was the opposite. Something bad happened to Perrie, Jade was asleep, and Perrie couldn't talk about it until morning. Perrie needed to talk this over, make sure Jade wouldn't hate her. She couldn't just ignore what happened, it could ruin their entire relationship. She hated him. He risked their entire relationship to be that stupid.

Moments earlier...

"No, Zayn, I can't do that to Jade, back away from me." Perrie growled, pushing his body off of her.

"Babe, she doesn't need to know." Zayn purred, trying to force his way back to her body.

"Zayn, I'm not some lowlife pig you can just play with for sex. I'm not like you." Perrie hissed,trying to shove him off of her. He forced his way back again and quickly locked their lips, fighting back against Perrie's constant scratching. She thoroughly hated him and couldn't get him off of her, he was too strong. "Zayn, get off of me!" She yelled, finally able to fight against Zayn's grip. His lips were like poison. They were disgusting. Perrie continued to yell, screaming profanities at Zayn, almost punching him in the face. Despite how much she wanted to, she couldn't bring herself to punch him. She wasn't like that, sometimes she wished she was.