Emotions // C.H

Journal

FLEUR
Hello again..
I know it has been forever since I've written, but I've been so caught up with everything and everyone that I've never had spare time on my hands. 5sos landed in Australia today. I didn't manage to get any tickets to their show here in Brisbane (as always), but I am just hoping to maybe, by slim chances, meet them in the street or something extremely rare like that. Apart from that, I'm still sitting in the classrooms at lunch and watching funny cat videos while I eat. I'm still getting picked on by the bitches at my school, and man does it suck. I hate feeling so terrible and not having anything to say back. Anna is probably the worst, Lilac being the second worst. Fuck you Lilac. I hope your hair falls out.
In conclusion, my life is still the same.
-Fleur xx

I closed my polished leather journal, running my fingers over the metal badge on the front of a tree. I swear to god I see this tree symbol everywhere. It's the typical tree symbol. Eh, whatever. I stand up off my bed and slide my journal neatly in with the rest of my books. After I'm content with it being 100% neat, I walk back over to my bed and pick up my laptop, searching Twitter in my hot bar.

It was a casual Tuesday on my school break, which I still had a few weeks left of. It was a cloudy day outside, and my mum was working, as usual. Once I saw the familiar blue setting on my screen, I searched "5sos" to see what had been happening since they landed home. I knew they were coming to Brisbane in 5 days to perform a show part of their "Sounds Live Feels Live" world arena tour. I really want to go, but I never end up with tickets in my hands, except for that one time where I was given the opportunity to go to their last show here, which was fantastic.

As I'm reading through the timeline of my search, I see quite a lot of people quoting one of Calum's recent tweets, most including a picture of Pepe the frog crying as well. I decide to see what the tweet was that could be so provocative by clearing my search and changing it to "calum5sos" and clicking on his profile. The tweet was simple, yet instantly shattered my heart, knowing the stress he was going through.

One day I will leave and live a normal life.

Now I understand why people were tweeting #weloveyoucalum.

Why did he tweet that? I didn't recognise it to be any song lyrics I've heard, and I've listened to quite a fair amount of artists and songs.

All I've been reading recently has been "Calum Hood cracking under stress?", "Is Calum Hood over being chased by desperate teens?" and "Calum Hood seen walking around looking depressed". I, as well as the rest of the fandom, just brushed it off as the media being dickheads, but this is getting serious now.

I felt a strange feeling; like someone was telling me something. But the words were blurred like fog in front of a car. I couldn't understand what the words were, but I knew it involved Calum.

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Wtf is this? This is so bad. Ugh it gets really good I promise.

SONGS OF THE CHAPTER:
Ghost - Halsey
Amnesia - 5 Seconds Of Summer