Liv's POV
I felt horrible. This was my fault Dan was going to come for all of us now and this time there was no stopping him, When I returned home I went it to the cupboard where louis keeps all the alcohol and took two bottles of gin, then i went downstairs and got my backpack and walked out not caring that it was pouring of rain outside and I was in summer clothes, I went to the nearest corner shop and bought two packets of cigarettes,a lighter and a pair of cheap scissors. I put my headphones in and started walking to the forest, the song sleepwalking by bring me the horizon started playing youtube.com/watch?v=lir3dzYIhz0. I started running as fast as i could into the forest hot tears falling down my face. I reached the forest and fell down leaning on the nearest tree. I took out the cigarettes and lit one then opened to bottle of gin and took a swig then i brought out the siscors and started to cut my wrists not feeling any pain 'Should i sink or swim or simply disappear?' played in my ears i started crying even more taking a drag from the cigarette and a swig from the bottle, my cuts started getting deeper and bleeding more.
My head started spinning 'TIME STOOD STILL THE WAY IT DID BEFORE, ITS LIKE I'M SLEEPWALKING' played in my ears, I put down the scissors and took a last drag from the cigarette before lighting another one and taking another swig from the gin bottle. self destruction is such a beautiful thing isn't it? i stood up and started walking further into the forest everything was blurry. The scientist started playing and i dropped to the floor again crying heavily, I clutched the gin bottle to my chest and drank the remainders of the contents and finished the first packet of cigarettes 'Nobody said it was easy' i started singing along digging in my bag for the bottle of pills that i had thrown in there but i couldn't find them,I must have dropped them somewhere.
Niall's POV
She wasn't answering any of our calls. I was beginning to get worried, where could she be? I tried calling her one last time but there was still no answer, Lulu and harry were cuddled together on the sofa wrapped in each other's arms 'I think i know where she might be' Lulu said she was still trembling from the events early in the day, she was now wearing a pair of Liv's pajamas I missed Liv so much what if she had been taken again 'There's one place that she always goes when she's upset'
Louis came barging in 'MY BOTTLES OF GIN' he shouted 'THEY'RE GONE' Liam looked at him strangely
'shut up louis thats not helping' liam said
'wait, she might have taken Them' Lulu said 'Oh crap what if she's started smoking again' Lulu jumped up 'I KNOW WHERE SHE IS, SHE'S IN THE FOREST, SHE'S GOING TO START SELF DESTRUCTION' my eyes widen.
I got up and grabbed my car keys everyone followed me. We all squished into my car and i began to speed down the road
Liv's POV
I walked down to the river that was in the middle on the forest and took of my shoes then my skirt and stepped into the river. Raindrops fell heavy on my face. I felt sharp rocks under my feet so i decided to float looking into the dark sky. Raindrops started going into my eyes so i closed them letting the ripples from the river pull me along.
I felt calm and peacefull and then a memory flashed into my brain. It was of my parents, my Dad he was hitting my mummer and screaming at her. I saw child me peeping my head from behind the door my parents looked at me, my mummer's face was bruised my dad picked me up and threw me aside I crashed into the fish tank causing it to break and water fell all over me. I open my eyes, my breathing was heaving, I ducked my head under the water i held my breath for as long as i could before bobbing up to the surface and crawling out and laying down on the river bank.
I felt my legs go numb so i pulled my skirt back on and lit another cigarette, it keeps me warm from the inside, then I opened the second bottle of gin and took a swig swallowing it slowly it warmed up my throat. I took a drag from the cigarette and then pulled out the scissors again and began working on my arm hot blood was streaming down it. I looked down and saw the bottle of pills were on my lap. Brilliant. That's when I fainted.....
Niall's POV
I parked outside the forest and ran through the tree's not waiting for anyone 'LIV WHERE ARE YOU' I screamed as loud as i could but there was no answer, I tripped over something it was a bottle of gin and next to it was packet of marlboro reds.
I turned the gin bottle over and saw written on the back 'Property of Louis 'tommo' tomlinson' I began to cry i don't want her to do this to herself Lulu came up behind me and told me to follow her, so i did we walked for ages until we found her she was passed out on the side of the river bank her hair was wet, she was holding a cigarette in her hand and the bottle of gin was next to her I ran up to her and held her in my arms i felt something warm drip on to me and looked down it was blood, her arm was bleeding heavily I noticed the scissors that were next to her, she did self harm?
i pulled her in closer as everyone found us 'Oh my god' Louis whispered and walked towards her trying to take her from my arms but I wouldn't let go he sat down next to me and began to cry. I looked up and saw the look of horror on everyone else's face they were all in tears. I looked down and saw the bottle of sleeping pill that were lying open on the floor next to her,She'd tried to kill herself. I placed my head on her chest and felt her breathing i was relieved I picked her up and carried her through the forest to my car. I waited for the others to get in before placing her on louis lap,I knew he would protect her. We drove back to louis' in silence.
