Give Your Heart A Break

TwentyTwo

I decided to update early, because I am a nice person. Haha nah but really, I felt bad for how long the last update took, so SUPRISE ! Also on the side is the song I listened to writing this! Also there is a picture of Charlie. Adorable right? Hope you all like the update :) 

HARRY P.O.V

I tried to stretch out my numb limbs as I woke up. Sleeping on a floor wasn't exactly the most comfortable of places. My head spun as soon as I lifted my head, the lovely after effects of alcohol. Last night I learnt two things, one that Payton still obviously cared for me, her reaction to that girl kissing me spoke volumes, as bad as the situation was I couldn't help but feel a sense of satisfaction. Another thing I learned was that although she might still care for me it was useless, she was leaving. She was probably on a plane back home to Australia at this very moment. This whole time I have been moping since she left, I always had this glimmer of hope that maybe there was still a chance for us, but now that she is putting the whole Indian Ocean between us I can't help but get the feeling it was truly over. Our brief summer romance, that meant more to me than any other relationship I had been in, was officially coming to an end. The pain coursing through my body had a similar resemblance to that of when she walked out of my apartment a few weeks ago, the only difference was that this time the pain was magnified by the sheer fact that she was actually officially walking out of my life.

I sat up further as a new realisation hit me. I have been sitting outside her door since she ran out of the club last night. She hadn't been home yet, how was she supposed to grab her bags and passport? A new gleam of hope coursed through me with the chance that I was not yet too late to change her mind. That new gleam of hope though was quickly replaced with worry, where was she then? 

I looked up when I heard a noise and it was like my question was heard from above as I stared into blue eyes. She was still in her dress from last night although she had now replaced her heels with her converse. I couldn't help but admire the girl standing before me, the dress she wore made her look like and angel but then her converse made her look like Payton, which made her my angel.

"Harry." she whispered, her eyes widening at the sight of me. I quickly pulled myself up off the floor and rushed to her. As soon as i got within a few feet of her she slowly started to take cautious steps backward. Her movements sent a dagger to my heart. She couldn't handle to be near me.

"Payton, please. Im so freaking sorry. I know it does sound cliche' but she did kiss me. I did not kiss her. You're the only girl I want. You're the first thing I think of when I wake up and last thing I think of when I go to sleep, hell, you're the only thing I think of during the day. Ever since you walked out of my flat you have entirely consumed my thoughts. Every single thing I do reminds me of you. I can't even go to Starbucks anymore without the fear of breaking down, because I remember every aspect of that night. The way you rushed out the place to get away from me. I remember catching up to you and your confession of why you shut people out. I remember that night like it was yesterday because from that point onwards I knew what I wanted and that was you. I made it my mission to break your walls down. To know you. To know every aspect of you. I was irrevocably in love with you. I still am Payton. Please don't leave me." I begged. I was now on my knees in front of her. Tears were streaming down my cheeks. I couldn't bear to look at her from the sheer fact I didn't want to see her reaction. I didn't think I could bear the thought of rejection in her eyes.

To my surprise she bent down to my level and tilted my chin up to meet her eyes, which had tears in them, mirroring my own.

"Harry, I believe you. I believe everything your saying. But things are just so complicated right now. If I stay with you, I know I will only end up hurting you. I just need some time away, from everything and everyone. I need to sort my head out."