The Dilemma.

Amelia.

Fayth's POV:

I slid my arms around Mike's torso as he continued to wipe the tears off my cheeks.

"Shh, it's okay." he whispered as he rubbed my back and rested his chin on my head.

"No it's not okay. I couldn't save her Mikey... it was supposed to be me. It always was supposed to be me." I leaned my head against his chest and hugged him tighter not wanting to let go.

"Stop that. It wasn't supposed to be you. It wasn't supposed to be anyone." he kissed the top of my head and I looked up at him. I reached up towards his cheek and wiped away a single tear.

Mike's POV:

I looked up and over at the kitchen entrance. Austin was standing there watching with a concerned look on his face.

"Austin, you need to go." I stood up after releasing my grip from Fayth.

"I don't need to go anywhere." he said and crossed his arms.

"You need to leave!" I raised my voice which made Fayth flinch.

"Austin... you need to go." Alicia put her hand on his back.

"Okay, fine." he raised his hands and Alicia walked him to the door.

"Alex, Jack, my room." Alicia looked over at Alex and Jack who were sitting on the couch and pointed to her room. "Now." she demanded and they got up and followed her.

"Tony, call Vic and Jaime. They need to be here to." I whispered to Tony and turned to face Fayth who was still on the kitchen floor. "Come on." I said leaning down and placing my arm around her back and one under her legs. I lifted her up and she wrapped her arms around my neck and I carried her to the couch. I laid her down and sat next to her. She put a pillow on my lap and laid her head down. I played with her hair until she fell asleep and leaned my head back.

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Fayth's POV:

I wrapped my arms around Jaime's neck and breathed in his cologne.

"I've missed you so much." I said under my breath. He wrapped his arms around my waist and squeezed.

"I missed you too. Come sit down." he said and grabbed my hand and interlocked our fingers and made our way to the couch. He sat down and pulled me down next to him, wrapping his arm around my waist and pulling me closer to him. I nuzzled my face into his chest and sighed. He took a deep breath then kissed the top of my head. I took my hand and placed it on is chest. Feeling his heart beat. I breathed in and out in tune with the thumps of his heart. Calming myself one breath at a time. Jaime always knew what to do when I wasn't myself. He'd always hold me and not pressure  me to talk. I looked over at Vic who was on the love seat staring at Jaime and I. I then looked across to the other couch where Tony and Mike were sitting back and relaxing. I looked back over at Vic and furrowed my brow.

"What?" he asked and intertwined his fingers.

"Why are you staring at us like that?" I asked and lifted my head from Jaime's chest.

"Didn't we come here to talk?" he looked over at Mike and raised his eyebrow.

"Only when Fayth want's to." Jaime interjected. I nodded and rested my head against Jaime's chest again.

"So how long will that be?" Vic asked.

"How ever long it take's Vic." Tony argued. I laid over Jaime and rested my head on the arm of the couch. He looked down at me and smiled while tracing the side of my face. I felt safe, like nothing could hurt me. I closed my eyes and hummed the tune of I'm Out Of Gas And You Need A Jacket. Mike walked over and lifted up my legs and sat underneath them. He started tapping along to the song and Vic silently sang while Tony decided to hum the guitar riffs. I opened my eyes and looked over and Tony who was still humming. I sat up and looked over at Mike and then at Jaime.

"What's wrong?" Jaime asked.

"Nothing. I'm ready to talk is all." I slightly smiled and grabbed Mike's and Jaime's hand.

"Okay. Just... take your time." Jaime smiled and squeezed my hand.

"The night I left.... I tried stopping her. Amelia...... It's weird saying her name." I laughed a little and continued. "She called that night. Telling me that she couldn't take it anymore. That she was going to end it all...." I trailed off and smiled. "She was beautiful. Brown hair that reached her waist. Blue eyes.... I don't see how she didn't she wasn't.... She started crying on the phone. Sobbing, telling me she was sorry. Repeating it over and over." I stopped and looked up at Vic who was looking down at his feet. I looked at my hands and then down at my legs. "I uhm.... I couldn't get her to keep talking to me.... I asked her where she was and she told me it didn't matter.... but I remember hearing her music. She was playing You Only Live Once... I remember telling her that I would be there in five minutes.. and she said Don't waste your time on me. Tell Vic I went out in style and that everything's not all right." I took a deep breath and my bottom lip quivered. A single tear slid down my cheek and dropped onto Mike's hand. "She.. She hung up after that. I yelled into the phone No! Don't you do this to me! Not today! I tried calling her back but she had turned off her phone. So I ran out the door and just started to run. I ran all the way to her apartment. I started banging on her door. Her parent's answered and I shoved them out of my way. They yelled after me, asking me what's wrong. I just ran to her door and tried opening it and it was locked. I turned and looked at her dad. With fear and tears rolling down my eyes. He automatically knew what was wrong and told me to move. I stepped aside and he kicked the door down...." I took one more deep breath before continuing.

"Hey. You don't have to continue if you don't want to." Tony said, now crouching in front of me. I shook my head and sniffled.

"I-I ran into her room. I saw her standing there, laughing but with tears down her face. I looked down at her hand. She had an empty bottle of pills. I looked at her wrist... she had vertical cuts. There was blood everywhere. It was all over the floor. All over her arms. I looked up at her and her eyes were full of fear. I ran over to her. I grabbed her and she collapsed in my arms. I remember yelling at her parent's to call 911, but it was no use. In her last breath she said I love you Fayth. Stay strong for me."  at that point I had tears running down my face and Jaime was rubbing my back.   "I didn't realize it at the time but I was sitting in a puddle of blood holding her.... crying... saying no over and over. The paramedics had to physically separate me from her. I was covered in blood. My shirt sticking to me. I was hysterical. I was holding on to her mom. Sobbing and yelling no." Mike wrapped his arms around me.

"I'm so sorry baby." Mike cooed into my ear wiping away tears still.

"I just got the urge to leave town and not look back. I thought it was all my fault. I thought I was the reason for all of what happened." I looked up at Mike and Tony who had tears in their eyes. I put my hand on Tony's face and wiped away a tear with my thumb and smiled. "Tony you're not one to cry." he laughed and put a hand on my knee.

"It tends to happen." he said through tears.

"I'm so sorry I left you guys.... I'm sorry I didn't contact you all those years I was gone. I just thought you would forget about me. Eventually move on." I looked over at Vic who was still in the love seat with his head in his hands. I stood up and sat next to him. "Look at me." I told him and lifted his chin to look at me. "I am so sorry I left you behind. I felt horrible because I knew you would be the one to worry the most." I grabbed his wrists and made him set his arms down.

"Hey!" Mike objected.

"Shut up Mike. This isn't about you." I looked over and smiled and sniffled.

"You were living with us Fayth... of course I was going to worry about you. You're like a little sister to me." he looked at me, tears in eyes. I kissed his cheek and hugged him. 

"I'm so sorry I left like that." I whispered in his ear.