A Kidnapper's Dream (Unedited)

-Chapter 18: Baby Tears-

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-Written By: LovableMonster-

-Chapter 18: Baby Tears-

Later in the night, when Luca has fallen asleep already, I venture out to my daughter's bedroom. I think it's better if it's just us two talking. I want to know why she would do such a thing to me and Luca. I still have the black dress on and it swooshes in the air while I make my way to Annabella. She's not asleep yet, she's curled up on her bed crying. I don't want to immediately run over to her and pity her. I want her to feel what I feel like right now. I want her to know what it feels like to cry. I've experienced the tears flowing so many times, why shouldn't she?

Her blonde hair sticks to her cheeks from the tears and she doesn't bother in removing the strands. I walk over slowly and sit on the end of her new bed. It's a bit dusty, like the other pieces of furniture in this place, but it's still a bed. She looks up at me suddenly, showing me a face full of sorrow and eyes that start pleading with me for forgiveness. I've learned to not give in so easily to her anymore, all because of this.

I brush the hairs off her face and look at her," Why did you do it?'' I ask, as low as a whisper. She lets out another tear, another baby tear.

"I thought he was going to hurt you...Ms. Gringale told me so many things about him, I didn't know what he'd do to you..." Annabella starts to let everything out like a fountain sprays water.

I sit there, not even touching her, but realizing she does love me in her own ways.

"You didn't know I was your mother then..."I say, realizing this is indeed true. Annabella shrugs slowly, letting a few tears dry up and she clears her throat and sniffles.

"I still didn't think anyone should go through anything like that mama..." She says and this makes me finally give in and wrap my arms around her. I can feel the wetness from her face on my skin and the smell of the night on her baby skin.

"Annabella...I didn't think so either, but the truth is...I love him..." I tell her this slowly so she can register this without growing angry with hate towards Luca.

She might think he has put a spell on me or that he has tricked me into love. In a way, he has, but I can't explain it to Anna when I barely know what I feel myself. I just want her to know that I love this man and that he would never hurt me, he should never scare me ever again. Luca is a good man, when he wants to be.

Annabella looks up," You do?'' I nod quickly so she won't think twice on the matter, I do love him.

There's many reasons why I love him, besides the few kisses and the bathroom scene, I do feel there's something else as well. I wish Annabella could be a part of that, but now, I'm not sure if Luca will ever forgive her. I don't even know if I can fully forgive her.

"I was afraid at first Anna, but love isn't always beautiful. Look at your mother Annabella, do you think this is beautiful?'' I say, letting her look at my arms and then I show her my neck that's bruised and burned. Annabella touches a long scar on my forearm and then wipes the tears from her eyes.

"No mama, you’re beautiful..." She says, giving me another hug. She wants to make up so badly. She does love me, she does think these things.

I mean to speak, to ask her another question, but she beats me to it.

"When did you meet Luca?'' She asks, suddenly interested in my love life. I'd like to think she'd warm up to him, but maybe that's asking way too much out of my poor daughter. She's come to accept me so quickly even when I gave her up, which we haven't discussed, but she won't accept Luca for what he is and what he's done.