Wallflower

annoying

It all started.

All the sweet talks, i was flattered.
Thing was, he always gave me that question.

"Why do you care about me?"
"Why bother?"
"Why are you being so nice?"
"Why are you helping me?"

and i was annoyed.

I remembered last time he asked;
"Why do you always visit me when you can't sleep at night?" and then i answered, "Because i knew that you'd be awake too." I knew it wasn't the best answer i could give and it would actually made him think that he was not more than just a friend, but i was so annoyed i couldn't stand it. He then told me to go home and sleep because it was 3AM and he said that it's no good for a girl to sleep that late, but then i refused because i didn't feel sleepy at all. He said, "Alright i'll stay up with you." and what i did was, "Nah, you know what? I think i'll just go back, you know?" "Are you sure?" "Yeah. I'll go now." said I, opened his front door. He said goodbye but i didn't respond to that, i closed his door slowly, thinking about what just happened. Why did i say things like that? The next morning, i texted him; apologized for being so rude about last night, thank God he said it was alright.

Want me to tell you something that made me cry?

one night, he said;

"That's why you don't find someone like me, find someone who's responsible and loving."

I was friendzoned. ha ha ha.
He pushed me away all the time, he told me that he's no good for me but i didn't care. I didn't care at all.