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I've never seen Jonah came out of his house. I wanted to visit, but i was very busy with school work and, yeah i was too lazy to care. But i was very curious, i tried stay up late. I reached 1 AM but then i fell asleep. I tried to stay up late again the other day, i failed. I was very sleepy i could not concentrate in classes.

"Indi you look tired, are you sick?" Asked Zac. I said i was okay but then Zac insisted to carry me home. He was really shocked when he found out where my house was and told me something that almost dropped my heart.

"My brother lives next to your house!"

What i did was just raised my eyebrows. I tried not to told Zac about the dawn i've spent with his brother because that'd be weird as hell. Zac held my hand and dragged me to Jonah's front door. My heart was beating really fast, i didn't even know why was i being really nervous. He knocked the door several times but nobody opened it. I've got so much things going on inside my head but i tried to keep it all quiet, i didn't want Zac to know that his brother has got my attention. "He probably is sleeping, what a lazy ass." Said Zac. "Hey don't say that to your brother!" Replied I, followed by a little laugh. I was wondering where Jonah was, where did he go? He said that he was unemployed so he should've been inside the goddamn house by himself. Probably sleeping. Yeah, Zac was probably right.

The thought of Jonah kept me awake, which was great. I was hoping that when i opened the window, he was sitting on that roof again; but he wasn't. I jumped out and tried to look around the street, nowhere to be found. I sneaked into his backyard but he wasn't there either! It was 2 in the morning I was feeling really hopeless until i felt a pat on my shoulder. It was Jonah! Finally he showed up just in time.

"What are you doing here?" asked him, with a smile on his tired face. "Me? Oh nothing really! I just--" "What?" "I can't sleep." "So you decided to sneak into people's backyard?"

ouch. i felt diseased.

"NO! I didn't mean to do this-- I was just-- BORED!" explained I, with a beating heart that felt like it was going to explode. But then his smile calmed me. "Your face's red." "What?????" "come on in!" said Jonah, opened the door for me. His house was all clean and honestly, i didn't expect it to be this organized. "You're really... neat." Said I. "Nah, i never leave my bedroom though." i thought it was only a joke until he told me his routinity. He usually slept at 7 or 8 in the morning and woke up at 5 or 6 PM. I was really shocked about how messy his life was. I told him that he should really break the habit and he decided to tell me something.

"I do drugs."

Well that scared the hell outta me. I was just 17 years old and I was INSIDE someone's house with no one else inside and that someone decided to tell me that he was a drug addict. Underline the SEVENTEEN YEARS OLD.

"I do drugs, what do you expect? Nightlife is a part of me now."

I was speechless. I wasn't scared at HIM, i was scared at what this thing could do to me. I was thinking about not trusting him any longer, but i knew i couldn't. I wish i could, but the feelings made me stay.

"Wow really? How old are you Jonah?" Asked I, tried to laugh it off. "I'm 23 years old." "Really?? Oh god i thought you were 19 years old!"

He laughed. We laughed.

"Aren't you afraid?" Asked Jonah, with a face that you could never read. "Why are you asking me that?" "I'm no good for you, Indi." "Hey don't say that. Just because you do stuffs that i don't doesn't mean that i couldn't be friends with you right?" "Yeah but..." "Shut up Jonah.. I don't care what you do, what i know is that i wanted to be your friend."