Holding on to you

Lying is an art in itself

HELLO AGAIN GUYS!!! TWO FREAKING CHAPTERS IN ONE NIGHT, HOW COOL AM I? ANYWAY, THIS IS THE CONTINUATION TO THE LAST CHAPTER I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY IT AS MUCH AS I ENJOY WRITING IT. 

HAPPY READING MY LITTLE KILLERS!

PIC OF KINSLEY.

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Chapter 4

"Lilly?"

I looked at Jason, his anger was replaced by a worried expression. I felt so guilty, like a liar and a cheat. He didn't deserve what I was putting him through, I knew I should let him go, but I didn't want to.

I know that Killian will not want me forever, and I was hoping that Jason and I could get back together when that time comes. I know it's selfish of me to want him to stay single until I was able to be with him, but I couldn't help it...I love him.

"He didn't do anything to me, I stayed back because he wanted to get a head start on the project."

That's the worse excuse ever.

Jason looked at me like he didn't believe me and I tried my best to keep a straight face and let anything show. I wanted to scream in relief when his shoulders slumped in acceptance.

"I just don't like that fact that you're working with him and not me. I miss you, Lilly."

The soft almost pleading tone in his voice made me feel sad and like crying. I wanted to be able to tell him I miss him back, but I couldn't. I felt guilty for just moments ago enjoying being ravaged by Killian.

"I'm sorry, Jason."

That's the only thing I could have thought to say.

Jason's face soften and he took a step closer to me. His hand came up to move a curl out of my face and my eyes widen. My heart also started beating at a very fast pace.

"You don't have anything to be sorry about, I'm the one who was stupid enough to let the best thing in my life go. I wanted to know who I was without you and I found out that I'm nothing, that you were and still is the reason I breathe. I'm not going to give up on us Lilly, I will fight for you because we belong together. You need time, I know you do, so I'll wait for you to realise what I did."

God! Why did he have to be so freaking perfect?

He moved closer to me and I closed my eyes. I knew if I kept looking at him I'd end up kissing or doing something equally stupid along those lines.

"Lilly, what happened to your neck?"

That made my eyes open. I quickly brought my hair forward to cover the mark Killian put there and took a step away from him. I needed the distance in order to think straight.

"It's nothing, I think I bee or something stung me on my way to school this morning."

I avoided his eyes as I talk, the level of shame I was swimming was almost drowning me. Without waiting to see if he bought my story, I spoke again.

"Look, I've gotta go, Jessy must be wondering where I've run off to. I'll see you later Jason, bye."

I ran back into the cafeteria and saw my best friend sitting at our usual table. I grab a tray and joined the lunch line again. a text came through on my phone and I fished it out of my pocket and read it.

K. It seems like I can't leave you alone for a minute before you start behaving like a whore.

Me. I didn't do anything.