"Wait, can I use some mouthwash?" I asked.
"Sure thing, I need some too." We rushed into his bathroom washing out our mouths out as quickly as possible.
I jumped onto the bed, trying to be sexy, but I didn't know how. So I most likely looked like I was having a stroke or something. Isaac laughed, "What are you doing?"
"I tried, but this is all new." I giggled, "Being sexy is hard you know."
He blushed, "Nah, you pull it off all the time."
"Really?!" I got excited, "I usually just go with the flow."
His giggle made me happy, "That's adorable." He laid on the bed and surrounded my face with kisses. "You're so beautiful Lennon, you're just perfect."
"No I'm not," I rolled my eyes, "I'm one of those girls who likes to think she's perfect, but she's really not."
"That's the thing, you are! I promise you, you are." He gently laid on top of me, kissing my neck, giving me chills. I slid his shirt off, and he did the same to mine. I had my new black bra that Zach bought for me. The thought of Zach made things weird. Was I gonna turn into him if I did this? Sleep with everyone, just for the fun of it... and most likely get a disease.
I slid out from underneath Isaac, "Are you okay?" He asked worried.
"Yeah, it's just-" my words faded away and I started to daydream. Was I seriously about to give my virginity away, to someone who isn't my husband? Was I gonna break my standard, my goal, the one thing that I still wanted to keep? "I better get going." I said as I picked my shirt off the ground, and slid it back on. "I'm sorry Isaac," I sighed, "Its not you, it's just that I gotta get home."
"Its okay, I understand." He picked his shirt back up as well, and put it back on. We walked down the stairs, I grabbed Indie and put my shoes back on. Just as I was about to leave, I broke down in tears. What was going on with me? I turned to face Isaac, and he cuddled me in a hug. "Lennon? What's wrong?"
I'm not me anymore, I'm a monster. Those were the words that kept filling my mind. I'm in love with two guys! I just shook my head as he kept asking. I needed to tell him something, "I don't know?" Yup, best answer. I continued to cry, my eyes started to burn from all the tears, my face was soaked, and my nose started to run; I'm sure I looked God awful.
"Lets go outside and talk."
I looked down at my skanky clothes, "I don't wanna go out in this."
"Here, you can borrow some of my mom's clothes, okay?" He gave me a reassuring smile and handed me a white tee, and some shorts, at least they were longer than what I had on. I grabbed them and slid them over the clothes I had on previously.
We walked outside, and sat under a tree, the sun was starting to set. Isaac put his arm around me. "You want me to talk now, huh?"
He shook his head and smiled, "We don't have to talk if you don't want to, we can just sit here and enjoy this moment."
I looked up at him, he was too good to me. He knew exactly what to say, and when to say it. He was my bestfriend, but I know that he wanted more. It's the only thing we've both really wanted. "You're my favorite." I smiled.
He looked down at me and giggled, "You're my favorite too." We continued to sit there and watch as the sun started to set into the water. What was I gonna do with Isaac? What was I gonna do with Zach? Would I have time for my friends? Moving might have been the worst mistake that my family has made.
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A/N: Hey guys, sorry this chapter was short, I didn't feel like continuing this chapter with someone else POV so, yeah... make sure to comment and vote! Love you alllllll!!!
