Not carried on. Sorry. I just love them
*Sad*
*mostly real life*
Simon. Can we do a random games
Simon. Or FIFA
Josh. Sure
Josh. Why are you texting me we live in the same house
Simon. I went out
Josh. Oh ok
Josh. Will you be back to do a video
Simon. I thought we could do a video tomorrow
Simon. Because I am out today
Josh. Sorry. I can't Tomorrow
Josh. I'm going out to London remember
Josh. We can do one another time yea
Simon. Ok
Simon. Yea
*simon's pov. Real life*
Why?
Why does everyone hate me
Why?
Why do I have to love josh
Why?
Why can I never do anything right
Why?
Why do people watch me
Why?
Why do people care about me
Why?
Why am I bad
Why?
Why am I not dead
Is what I am thinking as I sit on the bridge, legs hanging over the side. Don't worry I won't jump. I can't jump. If I was brave enough to do it I would but obviously I can never do anything right so I won't jump. I want josh to feel the same. I want him to hold me and tell me I deserve the fans and I deserve his love. That won't happen, to be honest I don't even know if I want it to I mean I love him obviously but I won't be good enough I'm never good enough.
*there texts again*
Josh. I can do tomorrow
Josh. I canceled the taxi
Josh. Can we film at 7:00
*Simons pov*
Great. Another thing I ruined for someone. I know for a fact josh was looking forward to going to London. He was going to buy something, I can't remember what but I guess that doesn't matter now.
*there texts*
Simon. Sure
Simon. I'm gonna head back in a Minuit so I will be there
Josh is calling
Simon.hello
Josh. I was gonna pick you up where are you
Simon. You don't have to pick me up its fine
Josh. I'm going to please tell me where you are
Simon. *whispers* on the bridge
Josh. The bridge
Simon. Yea
Josh hung up
*simon pov*
I messed up, I messed up bad. I came out here late last night and it rained. So I am covered in water and a bridge is not the cleanest place so I am wet and muddy. I want him to get me obviously but I really don't want him to see me like this. *climbs up onto the pavement* I was staying on the platform over the railings. I know you will all think it was a stupid idea and I could have fallen when it was dark. And you would be right but I don't care. I really just wanted to get away from everyone
*Josh's pov*
I see simon. Soaking wet covered in Mud and cuts I wonder what happened to him. He did sound very sad on the phone, I hope it wasn't because of me.
*skipping the drive*
I look over at simon and he is asleep. I awe at how cute it is. Yes I may have a 'small' crush on Simon but who wouldn't. I pick him up and bring him to the bathroom. I shake him gently in a attempt to wake him.
*Simons pov*
I woke being shook by josh. We are in the bathroom which makes me remember what I look like and blush. 'Do you want me to help you wash' josh asked carefully I'm guessing not to scare me or something. I just nodded and snuggled into him.
*a week later*
*Simons pov*
Why?
Why is josh the best boyfriend ever
Why?
Why do I want to smile all the time
Why?
Why don't I want to die
I hope you like the happy ending
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