I am sad.
I don't know why.
Maybe it's because someone is going away again. I used to not care if someone will come and go but this time, I'm feeling things I shouldn't feel.
Sadness.
It's the same every time my father will leave us for work. I felt like I don't want him to go away from us any more. I don't want him to work there. I want him by my side. I'm too selfish for this request and I'm also feeling it for a friend.
Because I value anyone who stays by my side even just for a second. A one minute talk to me seems like a talk for five days. I remember it freshly even though the person I have talked to doesn't care. So I'm in the verge of crying when I found out. I hope it will be gone now because I can't handle this feeling.
He's going far away and I can't even say goodbye.
He's going in a ship and I feel like I am the one who will be home sick.
I don't know if he knew that I will miss him but I'm sure that I will.
I don't wan'na say goodbye because for the first time it will be painful to do so.
