Goner ; cth [completed]

seven.

*this may be a trigger warning to some, so sorry in advance if it does make you feel uncomfortable*

dear calum,

the entire first year we were friends was spent in one another's presence.

we would hang out constantly and eventually we started going to each other's houses.

your mom loved you so much. whenever you'd get up to use the bathroom or take out the trash for her, she would always talk about you.

she talked a lot about your childhood. i guess you were a really dorky kid.

your dad was never home much, and when he was, you almost always told me to go home.

at first I wasn't sure why you always wanted me to leave when he got home. but eventually i understood why.

it was late august, a few weeks before school started up again; you were going to be a senior.

and well, i spent the night because it was getting late and you offered.

your dad came home drunk and was downstairs breaking things.

i didn't hear that part, but i found out later when there was pieces of glass on the kitchen floor.

all i remember from that night was your dad charging up the stairs and into your room.

he threw the covers off of us and picked you up by your shirt collar.

he yelled at you a lot, and accused you and i of doing things. he even called me a slut.

i didn't care about that. people said things a lot.

all i cared about was you. and how your beautiful face got bruised by the hands of your own father that night.

i tried to stop him, but it didn't turn out how i had planned. he elbowed me in the chest.

after he left you were crying.

you begged me not to leave you. and all i did was shake my head because why would i leave you?

the rest of the night i held you in my arms; on the floor.

and the last thing i told you before you fell asleep was: "i'm sorry."

because i was sorry i hadn't realized what was going on before.

love,

jess

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(a/n): this is a sad chapter and I'm sorry if some of you think it's unnecessary, but I think that this covers why Calum was protective over Jess, and didn't want her staying the night.