Hunter's POV
I turned to Hayes and....
He kissed me. I kissed back. It was weird. "Hunter!" I hear Matt again. We pull apart. "Um.... I'm sorry." I say. I run off and past Matt. I ran to the fares wheel.
I got on and just thought. What did I do? Why'd I kiss back? He is my best friend. There can't be an us. I love Hayes. But not like that. Soon the ride ended and I called JJ.
H: Hey
J: Hey where the hell are you?
H: By the fares wheel
J: You scared us shit less
H: Well sorry. Didn't think they cared. Johnson, they used to bully me remember? They hate me.
J: no they don't. Cam was crying. He thought you were gonna get hurt.
H: put him on the phone
J: Ok. <Cam come here>
C: Hunt?
H: Cam?
C: oh thank god
H: why do you care so much? I ran away from you guys. I haven't talked to you in 5 months and you still wanna be there for me?
C: Hunter, Ok... I have to talk to you about something. After dinner ok?
H: Fine. Can someone come get me? I'm by the pier.
C: K we are coming.
I hung up and sat down. I was there forever. No sign of Hayes or Matt. Or anyone i know. "Hunter!" I see 10 figures in the distance. "Guys?" I stand up. "Cam!" "Hunter!" I run to him. I hug him and he spins around.
"I thought... I cant...." "I'm ok Cam. Thanks tho." I hug him again. "You lovebirds done yet?" Nash asked. I laugh. I see Hayes and Matt. Matt's glaring at Cam and Hayes looks like he is about to cry.
I walk over to Hayes. "Hey don't worry. It's OK. We are still friends." His eyes lightened up. I hug him. "Foooooooooooooooooooooood!" I yell.
I jump on Cameron's back. G was staring us down. "Cam go the food!" Everyone laughs and copies us. Hayes on Carter, Nash on Shawn, Aaron on JJ, and Matt and G walked. Freaking party poopers.
We get the restaurant and Cam drops me down. I grab his and and Nash's hand. Everyone but Matt and G do this. We walk in like kids.
"Reservation?" The woman asks. "MAGCON" Cam says. She nods. She leads us to a huge table. It fits all of us. "So...." Jacob says. "So...." I stare at him intensely. "Do you like music?" I ask him. He nods. "Do you sing?" He nods.
"Cool." "Dont you?" He asks. I freeze "have you seen my videos?" I ask. I was hoping he'd say no but he said yes. "I don't really sing..." I say awkwardly. "Yay! You are singing later." Shawn says. I groan.
"Shawn, I love you. But no" he starts laughing. "Ok I'll stick you in the freezer than." I laugh. "I'm short, but not that short Mendes" "so anyone got special people?" I ask randomly. "Yes!" I turn to see JJ. "Really who?" "Her name is Sam. (My friends secret name is Sam. This her rn. Lmao)
She's really cute." I smile. He's whipped.
"Anyone else?" G raises his hand. "I do." He says. "Her name is Jamie." My heart breaks. "Oh... Um cool. Well... I am gonna go to the bathroom I will be right back." I say. My heart shattered. I still love him.
We never broke up and I love him. He just walked off. I go to the restrooms. I pull out my old 'friend'. 1,2,3,4,5... That's it. Too much pain for today. I put the blade away and stopped the cuts from bleeding so much.
I sit there for a while. I am still crying. I can't cut anymore because my heart has to much hurt. "Hunter? Please come out!" It was Nash. Outside the girls restroom. "No" I say.
I looked at the cuts. I needed to do more. This wasn't enough. Ever since MAGCON my life turned upside down. What is happening to me? Why can't everything be OK?
I pulled my blade back out and sliced on my other wrist. 5 more. I added 2 more to each side before stopping. I eventually stopped crying. I got up and searched how to get back to hotel.
I found a route and left the bathroom. I walked right out the restaurant and continued. No one came. I know they saw me but no one came. Guess no one cares.
I get to the hotel and go to the elevator. I get to the floor I'm on and go to my room. I change into flannel pajama pants and a tank top. I climbed in bed and cried.
I cried myself to sleep.
Cam's POV
"Bro Gilinsky what the hell?" JJ says. "What? She ruined our relationship so I found someone else." He says. "No. You never even broke up! You just walked away from her! You are cheating on this Jamie chick. Enjoy the little bitch!" I say loudly.
I went over to the bathroom. I snuck into the girls bathroom and she wasn't there. I quickly left. "She's missing." I say. I leave and run to the hotel. In 15 minutes I get there and go to the receptionist. "I need the key to room 201." She gives one to me.
I get in the elevator and take it up to our floor. I finally get there. I knock on the door and there's no answer. I knock again. Shuffling. No answer. I use the key card and open the door.
She is asleep. "Hunter?" She wakes up. "What!?" She snaps tiredly. "You ok?" She shakes her head. She says it back down. I go and sit on her bed. I hear little whimpers. I look at see her face. Closed eyes, tears pouring down her cheeks.
I look at her wrists. "Hunter? W-why? Y-you c-cut" I say on the verge of tears. She sits up. "I deserve it. I'm not good enough. Everyone but you and Hayes hate me. I'm worthless. I should just die."
"Stop Hunt. That's not true. You're amazing. We don't hate you. We were in so much pain after you left without saying. We stopped bullying and went on social media. Ever since then we became famous. Oh and don't ever say you wanna die. I would be in go much pain."
"What do you mean?" She asks. "Hunter, I cut myself because of this. Remember?" She stared at me blankly "No I dont." "Oh ok" i pull sleeve up. Both of them.
"Give me your hand." I say. She gives me her hand and I trace her fingers on my scars. Her eyes watered. I flip her hands over. "Why did you do this!?" I say looking at her. She didn't reply. "Hunter. Why?"
I needed a real reason. Not that stupid crap she said.
