I Could Be Perfect, But Nobody Is

Let Me Explain

Its Thursday night and Arion and I area chilling at his house. We are cuddling on his comfy couch watch one of my favorite movies, Blue Hill Avenue. He's laying down and I'm in between his legs. He's playing with my hair and I'm rubbing his leg.

Arion: You probably don't want to talk about but I wanna know what happened with dude.

I knew this conversation wouldn't come up eventually. I dint want to talk about but he asked so...

Me: Uh, well Lance and I dated for 10 months. At first I thought I was in love, and we had good times. Then I was naive and stupid, and I let him take my virginity that 10th months. About a week after that I found he was sleeping with one of my friends, Amy, our whole relastionship. Everything we had was built on lies, he just told me what I wanted to hear, and I listened. I had beat up Amy, so she got a restraining order on me. My brother beat Lance ass, bad.! After that I became cold hearted, and Lance wants me back. I don't put up with people shit, and I don't give second chances. My longest relationship after him was 4 1/2 days literally. I think that wasn't because I kept boyfriends to replace the thought in my head of what he's did to me, but it just means think if it more so I broke up with em. I didn't think that I needed them or sex, I only had sex with Lancer 1 time, and that was my last having. I mean you the only person I actually gave a chance since him, I saw something different in you.

Arion: That's because I am different. I will never do nothing like that to you. I know we young, but I think this is younge love. Babe, that shit was crazy what he did to you and I will never hurt you. You are all I think about, and I don't want nobody else as long as I got you. I know because of what he did it's hard for you to open your heart but I'll only make up for it. As long as you with me, imma best with you.

Me: It's all seems to food to be true. I mean I feel the same way about no doubt but I haven't to always look out for myself even when nobody else will. I got big plans in life, and every day I'm loving to prove a point. I was a fool our of once, but it won't happen. I just want to break up with me before you decide to cheat on me. I don't ask for much, I just need to be honest with me.

A: That won't be a problem. I don't have intentions on you going anywhere, or being a fool anytime.

Me: Sounds good. But what's your sex history.

A: *Laughs* You want to know everything?

Me: I told you everything.

A: You do know that that's my past,

right?

Me: Yeah, I know. Everyone makes mistakes, and all you can do is learn from them.

A: Your so understanding.

Me: Uh huh, so tell me.

A: I had a lot of girlfriends. They all just wanted money from me. I wouldn't know if any of them liked me for me, and not what I could give em. Eventually I got tired of it, and used how they used me. They wanted, I made work for it. They all was hoes. They would fuck me once or twice then they would meet my friends. They did my team for money. Then I met you and I thought you wasn't the inevitable. I seen something in you, that I was always looking for. That's why I kept you, and I keeping you. That's why I didn't bring you arounds my niggas cuz they used to gettin hoes from, but nothing like that. I don't want to put you in a position like that.

I always wondered why I never met none if his friends, when he met mine. But I understood.

Me: Thank you for that. But you won't have to worry about me sleeping with your boys. I'm scared to go that far with anybody.

A: *Laughs* That's good to know.

Me: I'm glad you shared that with me, I see you do have a soft side.

A: You are my soft side. I'm mad you ain't tell me what dude did before.

Me: I was good. *Laughs*

He just has to Let Me Explain.