Through His Eyes (Royce)

•Chap.27 "When it Passes"•

Jacob's mom's eyes slowly rose from her plate to meet his.

He kept his stare intense, resulting in her ragged intake of breath and nervous fidget. She looked away , tossing her food around her plate.

"Um, well. You don't ..have to.." she paused, "Jake, just go in my room. There's a small box inside  my dresser drawer to the left. It's blue with two white stripes. Don't mess with anything else. It's right on top." She breathed out quickly but seemingly put off by both of their requests.

He narrowed his eyes at the suspicious request and criteria but smiled softly in appreciation, giving her a nod as he continued to eat.
He would go as soon as he finished.

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Jacob pushed the door open to his mom's room, listening as the sink dishes rattled in the kitchen where she was.

He'd been given permission but he still felt the need to be stealthy. He carefully cracked the door and moved to swiftly slide open the dresser. He saw it right on top. Blue with two white stripes.

His hand slipped over the smooth edge of the maroon dresser , slickly tugging the box away from the clothes surrounding.

Jacob noticed the drawer was mighty packed; therefore, he placed the box on top of the dresser and looked between the crack of the bedroom door and listened for the noises in the kitchen. Yes, his mom was still busy.

He scooted the pile of clothes to the right of the drawer where his box once sat, revealing another on the left. It was black with the number 1 written in white sharpie marker. At closer inspection, Jacob realized it was actually a journal. His fingers glazed it's smooth texture before he realized the kitchen was quiet and heard the hall floorboards creak. He quickly pushed the clothes back , shutting the drawer smoothly as his mom's face appeared in the doorway.

He grabbed the box, calmly. "So what's in here?" he asked her, jumping to her bed,gazing down at the box. She took a seat beside him.

She ran a hand through her lengthy,sable hair, which was a little wavy today since she woke later in the day and didn't straighten it. Jacob liked it better this way, especially as it highlighted her small gray streak on the side.

"These are pictures from when you were born until you were .. gone. And then when you c-came back." Her voice sounded more tense and unsteady.

He looked at her to see a solemn smile, as if she was holding down tears. Confusedly, he opened the box and grabbed a stack of pictures attached by paper clip. It was small in thickness and by the looks,they were recent. There were some of  random occasions; his first school day back,hanging around the house,  when he and Chresanto left for the sleepover,etc.

His stomach felt a weight at that. What for? He didn't know. Maybe he felt they were unusual.

He put those down, grabbing the thick pile that spanned from birth to big years, and he could remember most of the images. He smiled big , looking at his mom holding him as a newborn. Her hair was in a pony tail, yet still all over the place while she smiled with pink, wet cheeks.

He traveled through the years until he approached middle school or freshmen year and it stopped after a shot of him taken throwing up peace signs, with "bling" (as he remembered calling it) around his neck, and a group of other young boys crowding. They all looked happy and that's when he noticed a trophy between them, like many others from previous pictures.

"1st Place WWAT×2013?" Jacob asked.

His mother wiped a tear before he could see,clearing her throat to talk . "Yes. You guys won that battle. You won so many.. but it was the last before.." unsteadily she sighed,nose scrunching, "You know."

Jacob picked out the pictures with Trevor in them and a few other boys he kind of remembered the faces of.  His eyebrows furrowed. "Mom I remember some things..but.. I'm missing a whole lot." He looked seriously,almost painfully at her. "And..and I need your help," he admitted in a strangled tone.

"And I need the truth."

She immediately engulfed him, her tears running off the back of his shirt, too fast to sink with the force of gravity like her heart had done countless times recalling this tragedy. "M'sorry hijo."

"So so so sorry." she placed multiple kisses on his head, forehead and cheeks. "I just wanted to protect you since I wasn't there to then."

At that statement he was a little more confused, while he watched a tear drip from her eye, where it once dangled from her long eyelashes. "I let them hurt you. . my sweet sweet baby.. They hurt you,love." she barely got out the last statement when her voice disappeared, releasing an awful sob. A withheld sob of pain from a mother whose child had left her.

And that heart wrenching sob as she engulfed him again ..it took him back.

He was given another vision.

And he remembered it felt almost the same, the breathlessness, heavy weight of his mother calling out to him and sobbing.

He doesn't like it.

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Some insight on Jacob's story. .

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Sorry for crazy tense changes, lol. I always seem to mess that up--it's easy to.

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Pss; Are y'all actually enjoying this book when it updates??

Just one more thing: That moment when you politely ask your readers to do something and one becomes a btch b/c he/she doesn't want to reread or continue reading& you don't update enough/correctly.

I mean, I know I'm at fault but some things,like grades, effect my life harsher than not updating.
I wish I could update regularly and I too hate when writers don't update and allow me to forget what they're writing , because after a while these fics all jumble up, but some impenetrable things get in the doggone way. All I can do is apoligize, try to write good chapters, and HOPE you guys stay with me. I know how it is. Thanks by the way if you are reading:)💚

Let's hope this is the last year of this book. If so , my writing should kick off hopefully..unless senior duties call😫😔I cry😢😵💊 lol.#imNotReady

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