I Believe

10: results

Everyone in my dorm circled around Manager Kim as he pulled out my drawer that I hid my pills in.

"Where is she?!" Manager Kim turns around as I hid under Christina.

"There." A girl in my team named Alina points at me. Her rank fell and went up a lot but she had always been top 10.

"Come with me." Manager Kim says. I didn't bother to move. "I'm calling your parents."

"Don't! Please don't!" I stopped him at the door. "You can't!!!"

"Follow me if you don't want them to know." He says to me seriously. I bit my bottom lip as I followed him. "Were you planning to hide it forever?" He asked.

"How'd you find out?" I asked Manager Kim.

"I noticed something suspicious." He answers. "How close are you with Baekhyun?"

"I don't know.. friend? I guess." I muttered. "Why?"

"He told me about this." He replies. "He told me he saw you dumping stuff in your secret area."

I recalled to the time I threw away a bag of pills in the trash can on the pier. He must've saw me.

"Remember the first thing I said to you on the first day we met."

"No dating." I remembered. He smiles at me. We walked to the doctor's office and got a brand new jar of pills.

"I trust you. I believe you will eat these on your own." Manager Kim hands it to me. "You heard the doctor."

"That it's best for me to take a rest?" I asked. He nodded at me as my eyes got watery.

"Think about it." He pats me on my head as he left. I held onto the jar of pills tightly as the tears dropped down my face. I quickly ran back to the doctor's office.

"Is it possible for me to stay?" I asked her. "I really don't want to leave the competition."

"There are side effects of these pills. They make you lose your energy quickly." She says to me. "If you want to then stay, but don't get stressed. Being stressed won't make your health any better." She smiles at me.

"There is only a few weeks left. It shouldn't be a problem, right?" I asked to make sure.

"If you eat the pills and start eating. It will not be a problem, but it's very hard to recover from anorexia." I smiled at her.

"Thank you."

••••••
1 month later

"The final voting is going to be out tomorrow." Manager Kim says to us. "Don't think much about it tonight. Sleep well." He dismissed us back into our rooms.

"Is it the last day we'll all be together?" Cerlina asked us. We had new roommates in our dorm specifically for the project.

"We've been sleeping together in the same room for so long now. I don't want to leave this place." Alina says.

"I hope even if some of us don't make it to top 10, we'll still maintain a good friendship." Christina spoke up.

"Yea." I agreed. The four of us hugged each other one last time before going to bed.

••••••
My life during the past month was difficult, but great. I was happy, but I was tired. There were times when I couldn't keep my balance because I had no energy, but I saw how many people were there to catch me when I fell. Even though it was hard to take in, I've lost my streak of securing the number 1 spot and dropped down to as low as #15. Here's why.

Every idol has at least some haters. Some are even closer than you expected. Meet one of my group's teachers, Sherry. Sherry was one of the judges and one of the instructors for one of the groups I was in. The group consisted of me, Cerlina, Ahri, Areum and Yujin.

First, she gave me no center time. Then gave me a 3 second line, then she criticized my weight and my lack of energy.

That wasn't the beginning. Sherry has criticized the way I do things ever since Day 1. Kathy even told me how she begged Manager Kim to replace me for someone else during the beginning of the 5 center spots. Jiwoo was the one she biased.

When I was in a group with Jiwoo, Jiwoo got all the lines, the center spot and everything. In the middle of the competition, Jiwoo left due to health issues. It was caused by Sherry. Sherry made her yell all her high notes (even though she can't reach them), which caused her to lose her voice. Because of this situation, Manager Kim has called her out in the middle of the live show after my group's performance, because she was criticizing me again.

Due to her criticizing, she has deducted many of my points, which dropped my place below 10. I even got eliminated, but was brought back with a surprise wild card. It seems whoever chose who to save in the wild card knows that I'll end up in a controversy again.

Manager Kim has removed her off the show, and she was fired from her job. Now with her gone, I got to redeem my spot. But all the points I lost were gone, so I had to work extra hard to redeem all my points back.

The final results of who has the most points will be announced tomorrow. If I don't get a spot in that group, I know who to blame.