To Make A Star Smile...

Chapter 5.

Another day passes.

slowly,

slowly.

I can hear you now.

I can.

Your voice tells me things.

Things I can't say or tell another.

Things I dare not write in fear someone will find.

Your voice is like the howling of the winter wind through these empty streets.

It mocks me and beckons me to do things.

I hold on though.

It's hard.

SO

HARD

TO

STAY

SANE.

But i'm trying.

For you.

I laugh.

I haven't spoken your name in forever.

Speaking it makes things worse.

Yet it's always trapped lodged in my throat.

Waiting for me to slip up.

To spill it out.

To open the

f

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G

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s

I won't.

Though.

I refuse.

I take a deep breath.

And wonder

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?' 'How long can i hold it?'

I don't want to live.

End this now? Please?