Now Or Never : Fast Lane

Chapter 11

Nelly was depressed , its been 3 months and Tyga still hasn't awake . Amber took the kids , because Nelly tried to kill herself twice but it didnt work .

All the stuff that happened over the years really hurt Nelly because she was and still is Tyga's ride to die , and she doesnt want to lose him.

But all she thought about it was, "i have to be strong for my kids" . So Nelly decided to get help . It took her about a good month to pretty much get over her depression .

She still visits Tyga everyday . She even takes Michael Jr. and Michelle , even thou they wouldnt understand , she still wants her kids to know there father .

Nelly*POV

Nelly*crying* No you cant

Doctor: its been 3 months we have to pull the plugs

Nelly: j- just give him some time

Doctor: I'll see what i can do ma'am

Nelly: *weak smile* Thank you

After the Doctor left I went into the bathroom , pulled out my pocket knife and started cutting my thigh . I craved "Tough Love" on my right thigh and cried and the blood dripping down my leg . Cutting myself is painful but the pain helps me , so I'll just have to get use to this shit .

I cant lose my kids because people think im going crazy , but deep inside im just hurt.

I sat on the hospital floor crying for a good 30 mins , i pulled myself together , cleaned myself up and left.

After i got home i dropped my things on the floor and slowly made my way up the stairs , to the bathroom , i looked in the mirror and i had bags under my eyes .

I took a shower , and put on some grey sweat pants and a purple tank top and went to bed .

Once again i dont have my kids with me there with Amber , shes a really good friend to me i thought , as i fell asleep

I woke up , dragged myself outta bed , i did my morning routine and got dress in white skinny jeans , with a blue tank top and my blue and white Jordans . I put my hair in a high bun .

Walked down the stairs , grabbed my keys and got into my car . I was on my way to the hospital when Wiz called me......