secret love song ◈ malum (completed)

nine

i wish that it could be like that; why can't we be like that? 'cause i'm yours...

calum

"c-cal?"

i look up through tear-dried eyelashes to see a certain blonde.

"oh my god, what the hell happened? are you okay?" luke kneels down in front of me. i scoot back, away from him, my back hitting the side of the bathtub.

i shake my head quickly, causing the black spots in my vision to multiply and my head to go dizzy. i let out a shaky sob and luke reaches out to me.

"cally?" a redhead appears in the doorway before the rest of my vision goes black and my head goes blank.

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michael (a/n: ooh damn)

i walk into the hood household using my spare key. luke his attached to my side and he leaves a kiss on my jaw.

"why don't you go look for him, and i'll pick out a movie?" i say and luke nods.

he rushes off, leaving my side to feel cold and empty. i shrug it off and go down into calum's basement. i hear some noises from upstairs but ignore them, thinking that luke and cal are just conversing.

after calum left this morning in anger, i decided i'd show up to have a surprise movie night. but then luke called, saying he wanted to hang out with me. so i invited him. he was hesitant but once i promised popcorn and cuddles he happily obliged.

i grab one his many marvel dvds and jog back upstairs.

when i reach the living room, it's empty. i furrow my eyebrows and walk towards the second story stairs. i hear a sob and luke's panicking voice. i run up the stairs as fast as i can.

i swear if calum told my boyfriend about our--

i stop my thoughts as i reach the bathroom. luke has tears in his wide eyes and has a panicked expression on his face. he's kneeled down on the floor in front of the sink, and calum's curled up next to the bathtub. tear tracks stain his red cheeks, and he whimpers before his eyes flutter close.

"cally?" i stand still, in shock as to what could have happened.  calum's body goes limp, and luke moves closer, checking his pulse.

"m-mikey.. his pulse is low, but it's there. w-what do we do?!" luke asks.

"i-i... what happened?" i croak, rushing to luke's side, placing my hands on calum's arms.

"i don't-- i don't know... he was just curled up in here sobbing when i came up. michael, i don't think he's okay. mentally, that is," luke says.

i push luke out of the way, then lift calum up in my arms.

"his heart rate is coming back up... he should be waking up any time soon," i say. "a-and what do you mean? he's fine; he's always so happy. i have no idea what could have caused this," i lie right through my teeth.

i know exactly why he was crying till he passed out. me.

i just don't understand why he was so upset about it though. i mean, he should have known that what we do is completely platonic-- well, not really, but no strings attached. meaning that nothing would come from it; it was purely just for my pleasure and his enjoyment.

"but haven't you noticed the way he lags behind when we walk down the street or how he just drinks drink after drink when we go out? or how he always has a permanent frown on his face?" luke asks. "i-i think he might be depressed mikey. w-what do we do?"

"well..." i'm speechless after thinking about what luke just said. everything he pointed out was true. maybe calum is depressed-- how have i been so oblivious? "i mean, there isn't really anything we can do, besides encouraging him to get some help or something."

luke just nods, then calum stirs in my arms. i walk down the stairs and lay him on the couch. luke and i kneel down beside him, waiting for him to wake up. it may sound creepy, but we just watch him, waiting for his eyes to beautifully flutter open like they usually do-- not that i would know, for i always leave before he wakes up.

however, i wish i could see that; i wish i could be beside him as his eyes flutter open every morning.

i shake the thoughts away as i hear luke speak.

"are you o-okay cal?"

i look back up to see calum sitting up.

"what happened?" i ask.

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a/n: kind of an abrupt stop there, but the chapter is already 300 words past my limit so

anyway--- some heavy shit here

will calum spill everything with luke sitting right there? or will he spare muke's relationship?

idk bros idk

double update (idk maybe triple ;D) tomorrow bc it's valentine's day and im forever alone :/

hope you enjoyed xx